Genre: Folk, Country
Lyric:
Fifty-nine years, life on me has worn
Internal skies gray as an empty dawn
Kids abandon me, they’ve got their own ways
Left to suffer my rest of days
Broken heart and a deeply weary soul
Took every hit, so they might have control
Sacrificed shamelessly so they could be whole
Shamelessly sacrificed, left upon life’s shoal
Left me behind without them to claim
Gave them all but they deny my name
Never had family, a life-long refrain
Never belonging, always an endless strain
Even from my children, no warmth to claim
The story unfolding, no one ever sustains
I used to move, like rays of the morning sun
But now I’m broken, and my life’s undone
My body’s becomes so weak, and my spirit’s worn
But this is nothing new, felt this way since I was born
Ever these empty arms, and my heart forever sealed
Alone in this life with neither weapon nor shield
Time is ever running out, but I’m yet still here
Alone and broken, how I wish they would hear
I know my gift to them, it was not in vain
Just like I know their gift to me, always more of the same.
It is hard to let go of something you’ve never held
It is hard to move on even when you’re expelled
It is hard to smile when you feel so all alone
It is hard to live without reason to go on…
Living for myself was never my life’s saving grace
Living for others or my kids always set my pace
Living for myself should not me immediately displace
Fact it does is the reason for these tears upon my face
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