sleep helps. some. i am always angry with myself after breaking down. why should i? undeserved pain. that’s why. but why angry with myself? as if i could control it? as if i could choose? silly rabbit, emotions are not always controllable. i sigh. still angry with myself. trying to learn kindness for myself, but it isn’t easy when i let myself be hoodwinked like i have in this.
bleh. more later. will be late for work if i don’t head out now.