today finds me curiously empty. empty in that way i should be, not leaning one side or the other, a middling that is comfortable. the last few days have been tranquil and i am catching up on reading and playing with graphics, doing a little research here and there. the new books on language arrived on saturday. enjoyable.
i am cautiously planning a loose-lined course for the next six months. over time, i have become less prone to tight schedules and expectations. finding that life tends to throw curves, i prefer not to count on a particular end. instead, set a general direction and try to use the swells and wind life brings to steer a less precise course, but one that will eventually see me in the vicinity i wish.
tomorrow brings in august. this is usually the time of year that i would take a weekend and head to the beach. i used to make such excursions regularly and of late, the urge to resume them becomes stronger. i miss the ocean sounds. i miss the wind and gulls and surf. not sure if i would hit st. augustine and jacksonville or turn inland toward pensacola. undecided, i look to the month’s end and figure i’ll drive and pick when i cross into florida.
my daughter tells me that we’re going to ireland when my vacation comes next year. i smile to think of it. a life-long dream, that trip. i want to see the west coast, where the sea eagles live protected, and little sod houses are still normal. i had a dream of that place, long ago… it was strangely vivid. i’ve never quite shaken the feeling that something important waits there for me. i look forward to going.
there isn’t much to talk about today, so i’m rambling. letting it flow. heh. new friends arrive, and i find a gentle delight to explore and be explored by them. my friend in the uk wants me to come visit as well. maybe a layover on the way to the emerald isle. the organization freak in me likes that thought.
the cyclic urge to write ebbs a bit, these entries may become a little scarce for a time. the nice thing about having my own domain for this is both that there’s no pressure and that i don’t have to worry for it disappearing.
i recently hung a domain from the host for my daughter’s modeling portfolio, but it looks like that’s going to be a time in production. i need to update my version of flash, and she’s still shopping for the best deal on comp shots. i’m enjoying the idea of getting it off the ground and being able to help her. having a geek for a mom has its perks, she tells me. i smiled.
i’ve had a snippet of a poem running through my head lately. thought about setting it here, but it is somewhat like making soup or perhaps brewing coffee. not ready yet. ah well.
like i said, nothing overly exciting or dramatic happening. just a calm and contenting day. i’m thankful for it. still wondering what Focus has in store… the pressure there is building, but it’s more like a distant thunder. i remain peaceful, let it come when it comes.
got another interesting fortune cookie last night. this one says, ‘you will find an outlet for your creative genius and accomplish a great deal.’ i chuckled. sounds like a good time to me, even if i grimaced slightly at the whole ‘creative genius’ thing. i suppose it would be fun to wear that hat for a little while, but the whole ‘center of attention’ thing really isn’t my style.
out of thoughts, so ending here. more later, i’m sure.