spent most of yesterday gaping at my computer in astonishment as it slowly fell apart. power supply fried. i’m lucky it didn’t burn everything into a misshapen, plastic lump. it managed to take out my agp slot in the process. for a time, i thought it had damaged more… but without video, no way to know.
spent what are now precious dollars getting a new power supply and a friend loaned me an old PCI card. back online, i’m torn between feeling greatly relieved and lightly worried. what else could go wrong… and having had a full day to think about how reliant i am on technology for something as simple as job hunting has been sobering to an extreme.
that i cannot fathom job hunting without the internet is, frankly, frightening.
i continue to apply to game houses, along with slots in the ‘old industry’ and a few in the baseline admin/clerical area. i’ll take whatever i get, to be honest. first come, first served. and if nothing pops by the time i’m t-minus three weeks from the end of unemployment, then i reckon it will be walmart time. whatever it takes.
rainy outside. overcast. my joints are complaining. brief thought to being 60 and wondering what it will feel like then. maybe by then, i’ll have someone around who will pass me aspirin and rub icy-hot on the sore spots. nice thought, however silly an image.
one of the jobs i applied for is in iceland. yup. iceland. i’m laughing at my arthritis. it is not pleased. but i suppose part of embracing freedom is being willing to look at “massive change” and smile. i really would go anywhere, and do anything. always surprises me that people never believe me. maybe i am an alien. maybe it is strange that i mean what i say all the time. i admit, it gets old to be disbelieved so entirely.
morning meditation complete, pour myself here as i drink recently poured coffee. a brief thought of sumatran black satin. ah, i miss it. but it will be there when i look. there’s a lot to be said for that.