so afraid of endings
that you leave it all behind
screaming to think of death
ironically ending all the time
running from the shadows
you embrace them still
fearful of being left behind
you linger in their chill
irony thick and rich
i’d laugh but i’m too busy crying
afraid of being left behind
you abandon to avoid trying
i lay upon my bed
zen purring by my side
think about your odd ways
think about your pride
her amber eyes look through me
i remembered my own words
anger toward you flying
cloud of flocking birds
i remember reading you
speaking of desire
‘i need you to be virtual’
out of reach, infinitely higher
you fear the ending
you run from it like rain
oh foolish blind child
you cannot outrun pain
i saw you running toward me
shadows at your heels
i heard your screams of fear
i saw your many ills
i thought you wanted comfort
i thought you wanted peace
i thought you wanted becoming
i thought you wanted ease
you want all these i know
but in them see only endings
running like the wind
as if possible, such extendings
i see it more clearly now
no wonder i could but fail
captain on the ocean of fear
screams billowing your sail
you lingered a short while
but no more could you stay
then you can stop your running
from a truth you cannot face
how do you fail to see
in all your many endings
the truth of impossibility
for all your tries and tendings
the paradox makes me ache
for all the ways i see
the things you might more enjoy
but for your urge to flee