general, rambling update time.
small nibble of interest from a company near me for a writer. samples sent, we’ll see how it goes.
morning resume run completed, coffee and youtube. WoW videos are pretty darn funny. the creative efforts are impressive. makes me want to fire up fraps but i’ve misplaced my editor and i haven’t the disk space. heh. another item on the list of ‘someday’.
starting book two of the ‘crown of stars’ series. sadly, i’m already predicting the outcome. this is the problem with reading too much of a fiction genre. bleh. i’m hoping to be proven wrong. we’ll see.
just found the power bill. bah. thought i’d paid it. this puts a kink in things. if i pay it now, i won’t have funds in the account for insurance. else rent will bounce. and groceries are almost gone. i consider options. there aren’t many. may be time to break down and ask for help from my daughter. sigh.
hmm. not going to dwell on it. what is, is.
moving on…
game news. new friends. a few of deep variety. the house is strong. amazingly so. we become reputed for roleplay and are among the few upon the server who can walk flagged into an enemy town and not immediately be set upon. they know we’re not there to fight. on the other hand, we show up at defense and the fight usually ends. i smile for it. we’re on a path to something unique in these places. slow walking, slow walking.
i am so thankful i paid these domains through next year that i could just cry. same for the game account. it constitutes the only social activity i can do at the moment, and were it not for this, i could be staring at the walls, listening for a phone that never rings, and very likely going slowly mad.
i miss the friends i thought i had. and i miss the feeling that i mattered to them. i try not to let it hurt but i do not always succeed.
ah well. i’ll stop here before i set off another hormonal/emotional nuke. i don’t need another week like last week.
wishes for safety and soft landings to one moving soon. thoughts of comfort and good things to another who strives to save their marriage. both now well outside the boundaries of my life, and unlikely ever to return, they remain cherished. and missed. and loved.
sigh.