10-27-06, pm

well… pods are out. the pricing is insane. interstate mileage. i could have guessed as much.

not sure if i can get a uhaul rental without a credit card. maybe they’ll take my checking debit card, but last time i tried that, they refused, saying credit cards only… hmm.

i know i’m counting my chickens before they hatch, and this will sound odd, but i have a feeling this is going to happen. so i want to have at least some idea of what i’m doing.

i always have a hard time asking for help. but i am going to need it to make this happen. i intend to ask them if they can aid in relocation. if they do, hopefully, it will be enough.

if they do not, then i consider doing something really unothorodox and desparate. i’m laughing at myself, so it’s ok if you’re laughing to read this… but i’m thinking about sending an email to my friends at distance and asking if they might donate a small amount by paypal to me to help make this happen.

stars. that’s really hard to even write. i detest asking for help because i always get rejected. also because many times, people tell me they want to help and when i ask for help, they say no. or worse still, they say they will help and when it comes time for the help, they change their mind.

i guess it isn’t that i don’t like asking… it’s that i don’t like being let down, or counting on someone else and they aren’t reliable.

ah well. i suppose we’ll see how it goes.

edit to add: i hear from my friend that they’ve been asked to clean out/up the desk next to them. this bodes very well! i am officially crossing the border from ‘cautiously optimistic’ to ‘downright excited’ and if life isn’t careful, i’m going to be ‘giddy happy’ soon. (grin)

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