well… good news and bad news.
the good news is… i’m still here and it isn’t a dream. *grin*
the bad news is… the truck isn’t here. and when i call to check, they say it hasn’t even left georgia yet.
they’re ‘getting a final delivery date’ for me now, and are soon to call back. oddly, i’m not angry. yes, everything, including my bed and non-perishable food is sitting there. yes, my rear is sore from this folding chair. heh. but meh… things happen, right? and what good would getting angry over something i can’t change bring? none.
oh, in all the excitement i forgot to log this… my first day at the sangha, saturday, their tape recorder broke during Rinpoche’s teaching. they were horrified. we took a break while they were talking and thinking about what to do.
i snuck out and got them a digital recorder. i suppose it sounds silly, but i like to surprise people like that. and it felt good to give them something unexpected, and see how they smiled.
sunday, during the morning, they were talking about the website and the woman managing it was lamenting her schedule. i brought them a concept piece after the break that afternoon and offered to take it on. the woman was so relieved i thought she was going to cry. wowsah. so great to be able to give.
thus, today, i’m working on a site for the sangha. hooking them up with a blog and some graphics and just tickled to pink to be able to ‘do something’ for them. likely will host their domain from here eventually.
i’ve spent most of the day today porting over content and locating pictures of the various Rinpoches and traveling Lamas and making ‘frames’ for the images so they all look consistent. also, building a look and feel for the site and modding the theme selected to match color and layout.
it’s going to be a beautiful site. i smile for it. i like the thought i can give them something beautiful because they’ve done the same for me. heck, i’d do it anyway… if you know me, you know how i am. (blush)
sitting here taking a break from it, should have most of it done by tonight. heh. i’m smiling for that too. i know they don’t expect anything until the end of the week. i enjoy exceeding expectation.
i’m already thinking ahead to streaming these teaching sessions and ways to market the site for instructional information that our guru wishes to offer as well as for the local paper. they’ve been so open to everything… and it was really wonderful how they were willing to let me do and give as i can.
i do not get this manner of response from most people… most people are so busy trying to figure out ‘where the hook is’ – being distrustful, cynical, and fearful that such things usually founder before they can really be fulfilled and the truth of what i am trying to give is known.
i find so much contentment in just… being allowed. so many firsts here. i contemplate it and am still simply lost in wonderment. stars, it is a beautiful thing.
so… more good news than bad, and all indications that it is only going to become more enjoyable with time.
did i mention i feel incredibly blessed? understatement of the year. truly. i feel like i have finally found a moment and place that i can fully be who i am. no etiquettes in play, no egos wanting obesience for acceptance, no pettiness. just genuine people who are open and kind and caring. people who let me be who i am, and don’t try to force me into some weird cookie cutter of expectation.
adore. adore. giddy girl dancing in the meadow.