tap, tap, tap goes the little metal hammer…

interesting the things that are leaping out at me lately. this song, appropriately named, and somewhat hard to hear, i heard on the way into work today. it finally left my head… and then…

i found its lyrics sitting ‘innocently’ in a post on a forum i frequent.

no such thing as coincidence. reminders, memories, whispers from the universe.

so. ok. not ignoring. set it here. another candle in the cathedral. every notice how it becomes more beautiful with every candle, though most candles are placed by those with tear-streaked faces?

seems ironic. pain to create beauty. memory creating in its honor of a moment the ambient shroud of care in which those who ache, who hurt, who would find healing might linger.

all things in their right place.

including me. standing in the cathedral. setting yet another candle. finding solace.

The autumn came in like concrete at my face.
Location hasn’t changed but I’m not living in the same place.
Its useless to respond respond to anything I’ve said I’ve said
I hate to quote this song all wrong but “Why Can’t We Still Be Friends”?
Aiming to upset me but you’re baffling me with your actions.
I am wrong. You are wrong. We subdivide into two factions.
Its made me retarded, I wish I didn’t let it.
Everything is upside down. I want those times I can’t forget and

Everything is always falling apart.
Everything is always falling apart.
You know I’d amputate my flaws if it meant that I could be with you.

How can I be so self-important in the world today?
My dis-ease of choice will be arriving soon anyway.
We justify our selfishness in every pointless fight.
And I hate to quote this song all wrong but “It Doesn’t Make It Right”.
Fuck the world.
Everything is breaking and changing and
Everything inside of me is breaking and changing.
Why can’t I ever let it go?
If I concentrate real hard I might not ever even know that

Everything is always falling apart.
Everything is always falling apart.
And I’d ignore my dreams in exchange for you being true.

It’s going to rain tonight so everything is miserable.
Smoke some more and then I’ll go back in and hate.
It’s going to rain tonight but it’s got to stop eventually.
Let’s anticipate the sun and warmth and raise our fists and say:
“Everything is always falling apart, but I can’t!”
“Everything is always falling apart, but I can’t!”
Everything is always falling apart
(Fell fast asleep. Woke up so easily.
Let’s make our dreams transcend reality.
Let’s not just seethe, give up, go back to sleep.
Wake up! Don’t fall apart.)

– The Arrogant Sons of Bitches- “So Let’s Go Nowhere!”