never really thought about this place as a possible touchstone for meeting new people. hah. how’s that for lack of forethought? but i’m starting to get pings from new and interesting places of late, and it is with a certain, soft delight that i undertake to explore them all as fully as possible.
i wrote to a new presence earlier today (in part) that in many ways, this has me feeling somewhat kittenish…
…a string of yarn… swat… swat… crouch, wriggle, whiskers twitching, eyes dilated, ears ahead and attenuated… will it move? did it? did it just?!?
hah. yes, this is me laughing at myself. both because it is a giddy thing to find new minds, and a delight to explore them, and a happy surprise to find this place generating such things. it wasn’t something i really considered as a possibility, for all i’ve allowed for it (see contact form on the right, comments enabled, etc).
what it brings to mind is that i hadn’t realized just how hungry for connection i have been, or how much distance i had set between myself and the ‘world at large’ over these last seven years. it is odd how the process of ‘losing everything’ and coming through it has changed me.
not all in bad ways, of course. i find i’m more attentive than i used to be… and while it is a ‘work in process’, i’m also kinder to myself and others. not quite so eager to write people off (though in truth, there have been a few i should have written off much earlier than i did simply for peace of mind).
i consider the notion that becoming more aware of ‘people visiting’ has here. there are some things i’d be tempted not to write as a result of it. then again… why edit? the only reason i’ve ever placed things behind the veil has been to counter certain unhealthy focus directed this way… not like anyone i’d actually like to continue knowing would possibly use things set here against me as those folk try/do.
still, it is a level of awareness that i never thought i’d be concerned with until this moment. hmm. not sure how/if i’m going to allow that to affect things.
all in all, the ping/meeting process is a beautiful thing. think i’m just going to have to let it roll, flow, unfold… and see how it does. part of that whole ‘let it be’ thing i’ve been working on lately.
so there. (grin)