i suppose it will sound odd, but i did something today that made me feel like life really was going to be ok after all. i bought new shoes.
don’t get me wrong, i’m not much of a shopper, and there are those who will laugh not at the stereotype possible in it, but that i’m actually talking about it.
oh well.
i bought new shoes. and not just one pair, either, damn it. i bought three. three very comfortable, dang-it-at-last-they-match-my-clothes, cushioned (oh the arthritic feet and ankles are still singing hosannah!), and perfect serviceable shoes.
understand, i have worn the exact same pair of shoes for the last oh… year. because i could never afford the luxury of new ones, let alone comfortable ones. every day, the same, ratty, uncomfortable, make my feet and ankles hurt, but suck it up girl, could be worse pair of shoes.
and tonight. i sit here at home, in my pj’s, with a pair of them on. just because i can, damn it.
and i do not feel guilty. and i do not regret buying them. and they are comfortable, damn it.
and i might just buy some new bras, too. so there.
little things. insignificant really, except that for the first time in about seven years, the things i used to take for granted are luxurious, reward, and guilt free. i won’t miss meals for buying these. i won’t wonder if i’ll have enough gas to get me back and forth to work until payday. i won’t worry if i’m going to be able to feed the cats.
did i mention they’re comfortable?
🙂