there are a few people who will know what that three letter word means. not many.
i am cautiously optimistic about an interview today. the job is perfect, the salary is right, the environment is just what i was looking for… but the usual ‘can you possibly not be bored’ and ‘are you sure’ is in play. there’s only so much that may be said in attempt to convince. ultimately, the decision as to sincerity rests with the hearer.
so. i wait to see.
not much else to report. a quiet weekend is likely. i thought we might be going to the greek town for the day, but it sounds as if that won’t be happening. i am surprisingly disappointed. ah well.
i’m likely going to stay up late tonight, reading. two books given to me last weekend. both buddhist and likely to be insightful. but i know how my mind takes this stuff and just spins it out… if i read them both, it will be weeks on end of posts that are nothing but absorbing and assimilating concepts, finding patterns and parallels, examples from the stacks and suddenly seen synchronicities as it settles.
i suppose i’ve taken enough of a break. time to get back to work. (wry grin)
in other news, there’s something percolating in the back of my head. creative stuff. no idea what just yet. i get the feeling i’m waiting for something. which is kind of eerie. as if i know it’s coming. i had mentioned some time ago that Focus was in effect… well it still is… though it has been weirdly variant in strength. that’s a first and somewhat unusual. i do not know what it means… or if it means anything. i suppose i’ll know when i know.
the last few months have been a time of feeling connectedness and savoring it in spite of the ‘reality’ that there really isn’t much in the way of active presence and proximity happening. in this moment, i feel as if i’m slipping into an aloof phase. but since that always tends to happen just before a quantum leap, it’s ok.
actually, that’s the ‘meh’ of it all in this moment… i know something is coming. and i know i won’t know what it is until it’s past. so i’m just kind of… floating… waiting without anticipating. idling, i suppose.
not much else to say, i’m missing the desktop… unable to really do anything of quality for Splice as the sound card in the laptop just doesn’t have the clarity to produce. meh. meh. meh.
i don’t spend much time wanting things. but i have to admit, i wish i could have afforded another desktop. a great swath of things have simply been cut out of the realm of possibility by this… and i miss them.
soon. i hope.