i’m writing from the keyboard of an acer laptop loaned to me until a replacement machine can arrive. that’s about a miracle of a condensed statement. today has been among the more chaotic days i’ve had in recent history. but it has also been among the more insightful. reckon as long as i can say this, i’m in good shape.
i’d tell you all about it, but frankly, i’m starting to do more than think about the notion of not having to hold onto or remember every fucking detail of things. sometimes, it’s just good to say, ‘yup, that sure was a heck of a day.’ and let the fucker go.
the crisis is past, life will get back to normal, i’ve actually learned a few things in the process, and among the many wonders to come of today are a new sense of something well nigh upon feeling secure in the present circumstances (!!) and a somewhat soft and thoroughly delightful sense of being cared for and loved.
that last bit is one of the more precious gifts i have received in life. i am sincerely thankful.
maybe some creative writing later. maybe. i’m actually breaking out one of the few packs of meat left in the house and making a good dinner for myself. as odd as it may sound, i feel like celebrating. today i was reminded that perspective makes all the difference in the world and most times, it just takes being willing to step back and adjust it. i wish i didn’t forget quite so often… but i’m glad i can remember, too.