yeah. it’s like that today. reckon we’re closing in on the full moon. i don’t even care. a few folks who can fuck off for all i care…. and fair warning, if you happen to be on the list, i suggest you take it seriously, because the last thing in the world i want or you need is what is gonna greet you if you don’t.
(1) Bram – fuck you for letting splice die without a word. fuck you also for blithely tottering off to make the freesound project without as much as a peep to those who have been hanging around trying to keep your baby alive while you spend all your effort and time on making another one. you’d do ghetto trash fathers proud, mate. eight months is more than long enough to wait for basic courtesy.
(2) Dae – fuck you for falling off the face of the earth after all your protestations of how that would never be something you would do. fuck you also for having the balls to chide me for falling out of touch for a week right before you disappeared.
(3) Rick – fuck you for going deaf, dumb, and blind the moment it happened that you might have to do more than shake your dick out of your pants. fuck you also for having the gall to try to suggest we meet next time you’re in town and for making it obvious that if a fuck isn’t waiting for you, you can’t make time to as much as talk. a year of this is more than enough. go away and don’t bother looking back…. i’m done with you.
(4) Richard and Pam – fuck you for making such a lie out of practice. fuck you for watching me lose job and home and having more concern for whether or not my cats had a place to stay than i did. most of all, fuck you for trying to say you are my friends to others recently and actually thinking i would agree in the face of it all.
(5) Jimmy – fuck you for making your wife tell me the things you should have. fuck you as well for ditching the thumb ring, and for putting all the time and effort we’ve endured to get this far into the dust. fuck you for ignoring my calls, and most of all, fuck you for becoming precisely what you promised you wouldn’t. since seven years no longer has any meaning to you, i guess it is time i agreed and let it become worthless, too.
(6) Lee – fuck you for being the same sniffing dog you claimed to despise. fuck you for friendship that is forgotten the first time you get your nose full of a woman. fuck you for insisting until i believed you, only to be just like all the things you swore were the worst of how men treat women they can’t fuck, and fuck you for having the nerve to use “you will always be special to me” as a goodbye.
(7) Ana – fuck you for coming to take my possessions and my cats and disappearing as soon as you got all you could get from me. fuck you for dropping out of sight when more than taking was asked of you. fuck you for telling mutual acquaintances of it as if taking as you have is somehow noteworthy, and fuck you for the lie of saying you’d ship it to me when i got settled. it isn’t about the things. i can and will replace them eventually. it is about the fact that you could know i am here, without, and not care.
you want to know the saddest, stupidest part of all? i actually sat here for half an hour considering whether or not i should actually have done with this and post it. more time and thought than any of you ever gave, to be sure.
fuck you for that, too, you self-absorbed, thoughtless, hypocritical, untrustworthy, lying asses.