i received an email from my friend stating that ‘he was still thinking about it’ and would write more tomorrow.
i replied simply that there was no need
if he has to think about it, if there cannot be a normal, natural will to openness, it simply is not a thing that can possibly be. it is not worth it to harangue him to be otherwise, nor is it worth it to continue to hope he could be so on his own.
and so it goes.