well, all the wonderful leads found when i landed here have yet to pan out. they may, they may not. i cannot afford to wait.
if i do not have a job landed by this friday, i’ll be heading down to the local grocery or whatnot to snag “a job” to keep my cell and insurance paid, etc.
let’s hope i can stand long enough to make a run of it. otherwise, i’m hosed.
positive thoughts. positive thoughts! (wry grin)
the hardest part about starting over is the whole ground zero part. the nice part about this time is that i’m not going anywhere. no more eyes looking at the horizon, this IS the horizon. this is it.
i had one small hope toward something different, but it would seem it has utterly passed. so… no attachment and face forward and chin up and so forth and so on. life goes on. so do i.
not much more to say really. just a short update-ish kind of thing to let you know where i’m at. i’m holding up well enough, i suppose. it’s always a bit stressful, this part of things, but knowing this is the last time i’m going to have to do it makes a HUGE difference.
i have to admit though, i miss my mattress. and my desk. (sigh) it is the comfort of them that i miss, not the ‘having of them’… if that makes sense.
so, once more and for the last time, i’m looking forward to buying a bed. hah.
good thing i’m not really stuck on the material or i suspect i would be… well… unhappy.
thinking of you. missing you. love you. as always,
me