and here i thought it was just monthly angst. i recognize this. it’s nearing end of year. this is time when i take stock of things. renew my commitments. consider what i wanted to accomplish at this time last year, do the review, figure out the ‘ledger’ and then, chuck it all over my shoulder and get back to mindfulness.
actually, it’s the time of year that i check myself for honesty. you see, a human naturally moves toward the things they truly want and if i’ve been honest with myself, the goals i set last year should be, if not in sight, then at least still on radar.
i’m not too terribly hard on myself with it, just making sure i’m not off in the weeds deceiving myself. a human needs to really keep up on that because it can be downright insidious.
so. that’s the reason for the angst of the moment… which is a damn sight better than any other reason it might be hanging over my shoulder again. so i’m smiling.
tea buzzer. more later.