This is the busiest social weekend I’ve had since arriving in Seattle. Hurray! 🙂 Bootstrapping complete, I find the adjustments easy and enjoyable to make (though I suspect it may take a small amount of time for those in proximity at work, etc. to realize/recognize what is happening).
Friday was a delightful set of hours with a new friend collaborating on community building and system design. I had not realized how much I missed this! Memories of (H.) were ridiculously poignant and melancholy, but passed swiftly.
(Small gifts of overall progress are noted and savored. I think the most profound element of delight has been the process of simply explaining to (I.) about history and outcomes and finding a level of understanding, acceptance, embrace, and comfort that is enough to sever the sense of similarity cleanly and completely.
The kind of compassion and openness (I.) brings was totally alien to (H.), whose interactions and choices make the continued contrast and comparison absurd, thus, abandoned. While I realize the barrel in the basement, recently shifted by an unexpected and odd contact, was re-opened, I give myself what I have long denied for attempts to be “understanding” and admit, acknowledge, and accept the simple reality that it would be impossible to have this perspective were there not significant evidence to support it.
So, ultimately, the odd notion that someone else’s perspective could or should be of higher consideration is, at long last, riven utterly. There are no words for the sense of relief and liberation; the last, oily morass drains out and away and is assisted by someone who manages (with apparent ease!) the very thing that was just impossible for the previous one to accomplish. Delight.)
Saturday found me tooling about in Ballard and meeting up with another friend (A.) to enjoy dinner and neighborhood exploration amidst conversation that ranged across easily as many topics as there were moments. What was supposed to be a three hour experience turned into a six hour one with ridiculous ease, and parting was a sweet sorrow that still has me smiling. I look forward to more and am goofy and giddy with the knowledge that I am not alone in the feeling.
Sunday was breakfast/brunch with (I.) and a meander through a couple of his favorite haunts whilst ideas for “world” building and community bootstrapping continued to receive careful consideration. We’ve hit upon the necessary hook and I’ll be building out the initial concepts and related diagrams so we can meet again, take red pens to it all, and suss it into a solid plan for use in building out the feature/functionality sets.
I’m back home, domestic duty spinning up, and one of two assignments due today are complete. Perhaps a small nap soon; I am finally feeling a bit tired. (a chuckle here for the thoroughly enjoyable sense of drowsiness. I shall sleep deeply tonight!)
All in all, this is a much welcome and over-due path. I look forward to how it unfolds.