Ya know, it’s interesting how, every now and then, I completely forget all the things I know and let myself get all knotted up and stressed out over “something”. When I finally realize what I’ve done, I always feel a bit sheepish; you know, that whole “Again? Really?!?!” reaction.
Human still, I reckon.
Today has been the day of general release and regulation; a return to the norm (for me) and a dispatch of stress and strain. I find I am remarkably relaxed (though not fully just yet) and generally calm with increasing movement toward contentment and peacefulness. In truth, I credit it largely to having an opportunity to be good to someone and demonstrate a few concepts that had fallen by the wayside in all this ridiculous spinning over a house.
Here, the reason why reminders and active self-adjustment and habituation is so important (aka there’s a reason why you practice and it isn’t to be perfect, it’s to maintain a constancy of being that distractions and disturbances are less likely to overwhelm). I had fallen off the wagon in evening rituals and daily processes and the result was… (cough)… not enjoyable.
So. Recognized, admitted, accepted, absolved, and adjusting… life goes on. 😉