Genre: Country, Folk, R&B, Rap, Punk
Lyric:
Since I was thirteen, I’ve been on this path alone
No family, no home and no one I could call my own
Each night when I try to sleep that fear it starts to unfold
Years of this pain shaping me as hard as the steel I hold
Streets were rough, and they taught me not to pick up but throw down
Dominate as queen or learn to take it full on the crown
By hood or in the woods, I had to learn to be this bold
Spit life in rhymes like diamonds, sharp and crude, or just cold
A hope of better days with friends keeps my heart incited
Each morning, I rise up, untamed and just as uninvited
Despite it all still I struggle to keep my humanity
Do my best to dance and juggle to join the community
Though most days they pass in my lonely soul’s soliloquy
I refuse to descend into hate’s bitter villainy
They say you best raise yourself by helping out another
This I have found to be true, be it sister or brother
While it cannot be said I was much of a real mother
I’ve done the best I could do given I’ve no real druther
Life rings with collateral damage maybe always will
The weight of what I could not manage hangs upon me still
It seems there’s no real way to unmake a human mistake
You find yourself begging at forgiveness’s firmly closed gate
Part of me wants to linger and there eternally wait
Lest the thought is impatience made me turn away, just skate
But I remind myself that I am just still here talking
The world and those lives go on, miles ahead they’re still walking
The outlines of all the history long since done chalking
Dirt settled, graves have their stones, why must I still be balking?
Thus the inner monologue it goes on from day to day
Hide and seek with myself and hope to further from pain stray
Now I am so much older, and no longer so alone
No family, no home still, but one I can call my own
Each night now when I try to sleep less a fear do I hold
Just memories, dead ‘what may bes’ make a blade I still must fold
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