close enough, but not quite spot on, re-written to speak to things at long last gone…
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me why I’ve gone
Playing movies in my head that make disaster feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you… please never call again.
And will you never say that you loved me just to spit again in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? My parting gift – infinite space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I took refuge this last month, an accomplishment you helped me with
The one thing that tore us apart is one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While you were busy waging war with pride, I was trying to stop the fight
You ever doubted my opinions on things, such suicidal hate
I tried to compliment you, but you were just too harsh to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby, like a toy, this was not part of the plan
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down and tried everything so that you could stay
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
I no longer have to ask, “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you