youtube was kind to me tonight.
sarah brightman, a favorite of old, and the gregorian monks did this very calming item about a year ago.
i used to really enjoy gregorian chant. it was my meditation music for ages, along with various world music bits and a few very old favorites most who read here wouldn’t recognize.
whiplash warning.
the stupidest things set me off. really. it’s annoying. tonight it was a commercial that sequed from crowds labeled ‘online friends’ to ‘friends you hang out with now and again’ to ‘friends who show up on moving day’ to ‘friends who are there for you’. the number in the crowd was huge at the beginning, of course… but by the end, there was only one person standing there.
needless to say, what set me off was realizing how completely out of synch with even this most rudimentary aspect of society i am. so much so that the commerical wasn’t even something i could identify with… rather, it was something that so pointedly dis-identified me and set me apart that it just broke me down.
that was roughly 9:00pm and it is now 11:30pm. found the video at 11:15pm. brought it here.
i should be in bed, but i am not going to be able to sleep. too much spinning in my head and none of it do i feel i can safely set here or talk about.
sigh.
guess it isn’t so anti-climatic after all.
had a waking dream today. you know the type… all impossibilities become possible and the sweet vindication of hope long held against all odds is felt.
as if.
sigh.
shutting up now.