Genre: rap, rock, punk, ska
Lyric:
At age five I lost faith in humanity
The ultimate cost was my serenity
The thing I miss most, sense of identity
In life’s tide I’ve been rost it’s an obscenity
The falls I’ve taken through the system’s cracks
Like nursery rhyme truth, they’ve broken my back
By systems juggled, from home to home placed
In tears I struggled, as new cracks me chased
At times I buckled, under new fists I braced
I shrunk and huddled, before their distaste
Systems and rituals I could never seem to master
No helpful victuals, only next and newest disaster
All the residuals my mind and body fully plastered
The picture of my future now but a gritty raster
No solace no safety no home sweet home for me
The years marching onward, as predators I flee
Inevitably the cycles tend to repeat
Despite my best efforts taught to kids by my feet
Keeping them afloat while I continued to drown
Brought the future in which they too, just me disown
Then in my forties, start to stabilize
Despite the sorties, I learned how to thrive
Though lumpy and warty, still I’m alive
No matter how dorty, the means I contrive
A life made of shards, still a story to be told
Despite these bad cards, trying to turn rust to gold
My question remains, how is it I have mattered
I carry all blame and my remnants are scattered
I feel no shame, but in truth my life is shattered
To claim contribution, me? I’m unduly flattered
Still the same it seems, even after all these years
In my mind the past screams, I’m left nothing but tears
Illness reaching extremes, as age whispers in ears
In this world’s regimes, I have nothing but my fears
My faith is lost, my serenity’s long gone
I’ve paid all the cost, but how can I go on?
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