this is the most settled i have been in one place in almost eight years. i thought about it today. the reason i thought about it was that i find the last eight years has almost conditioned me to want to move as soon as things seem like they will settle. it’s odd. somewhat a pre-emptive effort to avert being caught out? hm.
i catch myself saying things here and there like, “well, until the next disaster….”. but i must admit the ‘disasters’ are decidedly calmer these days, even the ones that have been of major disruptiveness. it’s… nice. i’m trying to settle into it for a change. also nice.
the other thing that occurred to me is that the reason i applied for that european job was almost a spit in the eye of kamma. heh. i *do* intend to get there. and in the not too distant future. but i’m not certain this particular opportunity is the one that will see me there, alas. (i would most certainly enjoy it. sigh.)
anyway.
i’ve spent most of the weekend reading. thus, i sit here rather muzzy headed with all manner of things swirling in my brain as the new story meets the trove of collected mythos and symbolism and slowly seeps in to be assimilated. i adore a book that can actually bring me things in new ways. the ones i just finished definitely did so.
the one i’m reading now is of a new series and i deliberately held back from getting the remainder of the series in case i didn’t like this one. i am ashamed to admit the story is damn closer to a romance than i normally like. (i usually avoid them like the plague… for what should be obvious reasons.)
in fact, the more i read this one, the more squirmy i feel about reading it and enjoying it. holy fucking hell, i do NOT intend to become one of those 40+ women who soothe their frustrations with bodice-ripper books.
(no, this isn’t one of those, but it’s closer to it than the things i usually read and i tend to paint with a broad brush on such things.)
i’m sitting here thinking of the look on the librarian’s face when i return all five monday and check out at least that many more. heh.
not much else to report really… it’s raining and my joints are fair pissed off, but this is pretty par for weather issues. no plans for tomorrow as yet. i’m back in my ‘don’t feel like seeing the outside world’ cocoon for now, it seems.
hope your weekend goes well.