today has been a fairly good day. got a lot done at work. got paid. that’s always nice. heh. whatever was chewing on me over this last week seems to be lightening up a bit. physically and emotionally.
i said i was going to buy furniture this payperiod, but have decided instead to save the money and wait. after all, i’ve lived without it these six months, a few more won’t hurt me and its good to get a little bit of a cushion in place.
listening to Conjure One today. i think they are my new favorite group. poor Keiko Matsui has had her stock plummet lately. it is interesting. i used to rely heavily on her work to keep me peaceful, calm. lately, the need for external aid for such things has been much lower. i like the feeling of becoming a little more internally sufficient.
unrelated randomness — came home today and there is a strange, chemical scent in the apartment. no idea where it is coming from. not quite astringent, just weirdly sharp. i suppose i’ll need to call the management and have them check it out.
eh. well. not much to talk about today. i reckon that’s a good thing, all things considered.
contemplating the weekend. i think i’m going to have to take myself out somewhere. hmm. wonder what’s happening in midtown. once upon a time, i used to do quite a lot of enjoyable things in midtown. maybe the museum of natural history. oooh. the planetarium, i haven’t been there in ages. i am smiling. always did love the notion of space.
interesting memory. laying on the ground as a child, looking out into the stars, and realising i was looking at the past. i always felt that was some manner of reminder not to think too much on history… it may seem interesting here and there, but it’s still something other than this moment.
heh. other memories crowding up now. Derek Moyer. he and i were quite the team. star trek and dinosaurs and he was kirk and i was spock and it didn’t matter than i was a girl because it was our world. he taught me how to play chess. i think about what i might have taught him, but i can’t say i know i taught him much of anything. hmm.
i did meet him many years later, after the children’s home. his wife and young son had left him and returned to iowa. he was desolate. i don’t think i taught him anything when we were children, but i remember very clearly helping him through that time… and counseling him… what did he really want, how to be honest with himself and take stock of life and find contentment in it, eventually, how to win back his family. we lost touch after that, i suppose it was a natural outcome. but i remember how good it felt. still does, really.
i’ve always been something of a catalyst. things just seem to happen when i’m in the frame. most of life has been kind of like that old tv show, i forget the name… the guy who is wandering for some reason, and each week, he’d meet some new situation and somehow lend to its progress. he never got to stay, always had to keep on the move. i remember thinking that was a sad thing.
no idea where that memory was trying to take me… ah well.
edit @ 12:22am — i found a deal i couldn’t resist. got furniture and saved a load. still have enough to begin savings. huzzah! check it out! (pictures below!)
two of the chairs, the apartment really isn’t large enough for a sofa or even a loveseat. and the bench for extra seating and a place for the cats to laze in the sun coming in the window.
i’m so excited. heck, i might even spend a little more time away from the computer… (boggle).