another very good day, albeit a quiet and peaceful one. meant to do laundry. didn’t. meant to go to the grocery store. didn’t. spent the day lazing about with the cats, playing with the gallery, and taking the time to be gentle and kind to myself. simple thoughts, relaxed and luxuriously comfortable with blankets, watched a couple of favorite movies and just enjoyed a return to contentment.
gave myself some time today to review the events of the last week and validate them to myself. spent some time as well pondering where the balance is between buddhism and my current direction. the thoughts of monasticism have passed. not that i could not pursue it, but it seems un-necessary. the universe continues to bring all manner of situations and learning, people and connection, lessons in every direction. i am content in it. it is.
jotted a quick follow-up to a quiet friend. hoping all is well with them, and that goals are coming into view. received a note from the one mentioned several days ago. they ponder ‘why i bother’ with them… such pain. i spend some time setting my own thoughts in mindful order before i reply. may all things be gentle and helpful.
i decide tomorrow is the day for out of the house activity. all the things i should have done today will be addressed. i may even treat myself to something special. perhaps a movie. perhaps a meal. perhaps just a nice, long, slow browse through my favorite bookstore. perhaps only coffee at the local shop. regardless, something special to remind myself that tending begins at home.
i think also about returning to volunteer work with animals. it was a good thing for me, for them. the tale of the boxer recorded here the other day reminds me how much i enjoyed it. i make a mental note to check into the local shelters and see which are looking for help. also to check with the local petsmart. adoption days usually are in need of volunteers.
feels good to get some traction on life. i hadn’t realized how much i was just allowing myself to drift. bad habit, that. i’ll see it broken.