there’s a word that goes with each of the three in that title. i’ll let it be an exercise for you to figure it out.

today is the day i am to hear if i am going west or not. that is, it is the day if when i am informed whether or not there is someone looking to change their own life and who would like someone to help with the heavy lifting.

made it to georgia. resting at the house of the folks who raised me at the children’s home. the one place where i can land when there’s no where else. even when it isn’t convenient. this, the difference between people who say they care and people who actually care. people who actually care will let you sleep on the floor rather than in your truck.

utility truck is here. shutting down and getting out. not sure where. wish me luck, i need it.

it’s really kind of funny, if you look at it that way. less than eight hours ago, i was talking to a friend and so excited about finally making it to seattle. then the landing pad disappeared and cried my eyes out, but eventually swallowed my pride and called my daughter and thank the stars, she said, ‘yes’… so i finally could sleep. two hours later, she called and said, ‘no’.  some miracle of physiology set me to numb and i managed to sleep anyway. but now it is morning.

i just received a call. from my daughter. she tells me she does not want me to come to her. she tells me ‘find something else’. too numb to think. going back to bed. will decide where the truck gets pointed when i wake up. it is official. i have no one. nothing. only two words can i think of right now and i say them with full understanding of what they mean and wonder how many who read this will know… no. more.

… it does.

well. email to post works, but text messaging to blog does not. so much for being able to holler for help if needed in the middle of nowhere. bleh.

well… if this works, then yes, i can actually post updates from the road. though i suspect they will be extremely succinct…. maybe. hah. (this being a test!)

the cats have a home. thank the stars. a sangha sister has taken them. i cannot begin to tell what an enormous relief/weight it has lifted.