well. today was the last day at the office. friday i pick up my last two days of pay and from there, it’s simply a matter of calculating how far X amount of dollars will get me.
merlot 1031
merlot. once it was my favorite. now it’s just a broken promise that i’m sipping because i’m tired of pretending that what i’m swallowing matters so long as it isn’t hemlock.
of narcissism
stars. someone asked elsewhere what (if any!!!) difference there was between narcissism and healthy self love. having had my own horrid encounter with a narcissist and still tending the wounds and dealing with the aftermath, it was easy enough to give my thoughts on the matter.
saudade, sunday, and safe travels
it’s odd how sometimes, farewells feel so heavy. i’m not quite sure why it is that way, except there is a part of me that always wants sharing and proximity to remain. attachment, i suppose, in the strict and most buddhist sense… i call it of that saudade variety because it’s a pleasant sadness and a pensive delight. hard to explain. i take a lot of heat from my friends here and there for loving everyone. they’re not harsh about it, just somewhat exasperated with me. i think perhaps they think maybe if i didn’t, i would not so often […]
Sopresatta
Six foot four, in my kitchen zinfindel and smiles first time in my life that a man has cooked for me he laughs and says he isn’t cooking he’s just cutting up he’s right of course fruits and cheeses and Sopresatta sunshine and sharing the cats, astonished hide under furniture meow jealousy and mild annoyance which i ignore movies and mentions of lives going in opposite directions my eye turns west as his life moves east passing, as all things do still it is good to have laughter with a friend late night whispers and the gift that is knowing […]
friend in the house
my friend, having been on the road since nevada, is now in my shower. heh. first visit since meeting (online!!) almost seven years ago. keeping in touch and keeping one another up to date on life in general throughout. we missed one another when he was headed to nevada and i was leaving louisania for new jersey.
karma says, “no rest for j00!”
not going to elaborate for now… suffice to say the earth ain’t staying where it’s supposed to and looks like life is about to get ‘interesting’ again… if you call me friend, please do this for me… seriously: – each morning, take some time to visualize good things coming my way. – each night, lather, rinse, and repeat. it would do me good to know you do so, and it may well help. thank you.
ten things that gripe my guts
1) people who tell me what i mean, intend, or am motivated by. 2) people who insist their view of my meaning, intentions, or motivations are more valid than my explanation of them, or even worse — that their view is somehow omniscient and refutes my own. 3) people who actually expect me to defend or justify my meaning, intent, or motivation. 4) people who think that being compassionate means always being “nice”, always rolling over, or never expressing other than ‘happy thoughts’. 5) people who think their suffering is worse than anyone elses. 6) people who expect others to […]
dude looks like a lady
well. in response to the comment on the last post, this funny moment.