I used to think happiness was something to findA place or a space in which my heart and soul entwinedBut the more I searched, the more it slipped away from viewAll the while my intuition screams to give a clue Contentment’s not a dream, it’s a choice we make each dayEmbracing what is, and let go what’s gone astrayFinding my peace amidst all this chaos and strifeAn inner sense of calm, brings to me the sense of life I used to crave excitement, adventure and thrillBut it has just never been the destination that fulfillsIt’s the moments in between, long […]
Track title: Ultimate TLDR
ASCAP registration #: 925344807 I hear it when you scream, “Fuck you!”I know it’s very hard to doI know most humans just eschewBut I really wish you’d un-fuck you. So hard to just be good to each otherSo easy to cuss and deride one anotherNo rest when one’s sore pride must recoverRelief and respite from this grind discover There is a path, a mystery to uncoverDelta between us and that future does hover Speak and with words the future we imbueListen, this universe hears me and youHears the expression, intention to actionSo make the emergence, survival’s extraction If you want […]
Track title: >Fleet Rendition
Tale old as time, looking for affectionProblem making humanity connectionCulture and society say I’m an infraction Connection always mattered to meWithout it life is a subtraction All walk this odd multiverse abstractionAll call from within their own afflictionAll seek to be more than fleet renditionStrive to connect and find out our life mission Simple witness, so let us speak with simplicityFind your inner truth or seek in others endlessly Circles within circles, cycle, and kalpas, tooEffects of all the causes, they come, return home to rueThere still is a path through all of this, for me and youMeet me in […]
Track title: Lighthouse
ASCAP registration #: 925340671 Each morning dawns, he’s by my sideWorking hard, though struggles resideAnxiety whispers in his earDepression tries to make him fearAutism’s quirks and ADHD’s paceHe starts each day like it’s a race At home, gets me through darkest nightsWith care, he tries to make it rightI rely on him, come what mayGrateful for his love every day In his eyes, all I see is lightA beacon, guiding through the fightA rock, my shelter from the stormA fire, that keeps my heart so warm Missing piece that now fits so rightAn autist nuances, shine so brightADHD’s energy, though […]
Track title: Sun/Sung Through Wound
Memory of sunflowers and lidded mason jarsMemory of innocently walking from the carMemory of finding out my family was goneMemory of wondering just what I did so wrong Left on the doorstep like a holiday adoptionRight then, this life it’s just such a shit-stained concoctionSlept in a toybox to try and calm down all the frightAwoke in a toybox in the morning’s soft, pale light I was a kid and all I knew was my familySo hard to find out they never really wanted me Tried to bond to other kids, and to house parents, tooBullied and ostracized for differences, […]
Tales For The Leet: Romeo & Juliet (media thoughts)
During silliness tonight over at RenMakesMusic‘s discord channel, in trying to point out the GOAT of early internet memery, I linked up “Tales For The Leet: Romeo & Juliet”. But then, I realized, that’s not the original, it can’t be, because Tales For The Leet was not made in 2011, but originated in the range of 1999-2004 by maker Chris Coutts’s own works of the time, fortunately preserved in the Wayback Machine at the following locations respectively (Thanks, Ruffle): 1.The original, as captured on date indicated in upper right corner of page after the jump – https://web.archive.org/web/20061230062545/http://uninteresting.myby.co.uk/noeffort/romjul.htm 2. The follow-up, […]
Track title: Takers
The weight of the world ain’t always divine,Keep my head held up, won’t let it decline.My chin may droop, but my spirit stays fine,Heart rising above, leaves worries behind. Life can be a weight, pressing on the chest,Must say it out straight, sometimes get depressedWish I could go home, right back to the nestBut I never had that option to rest It may look selfish but it’s just the truthIt ain’t help if it drains away your youth When you’re all alone in this universeYou learn to be strong though it makes you curseLean on the wrong one and it […]
Linux Mint & Me
Yesterday, I finally decided it was time to be done with Microsoft. Between pricing and privacy, I just cannot justify giving them any more of my money and I’m sick and tired of playing ‘whack a mole’ with their oft covert actions that either compromise my privacy choices without telling me, or retroactively remove them and hope I never notice. (I do. Shame on you. Done with you, too.) So, after consideration, I landed on Mint with Cinnamon on top and to be quite frank, nearly every issue I had with them in the past (i.e., poor GUI/UI design, convoluted […]
Track title: Scorched Earth
It seems like this earth is scorched, living life confined to porchAccomplishments by fire torched, illness and age on me gorgeI do not know what is worse, rot to end or wait for hearseProof I’m alive I still nurse, blood is the ink for this verse Tears are the rain for the pain, scars just drain and make the stainI’m trapped in an endless night, no dawn no day to take flightIn echoes memories fight, endless debate (of) wrong and rightThe lightning strikes my mind’s kite, backsighting grants no respite Standing on this life’s causeway, I know it sounds so […]
Track title: Death to Dichotomy
All these virtue signals but what’s the real score?Hashtag justice is loud, yet deeds remain poorThese words without any action, the shame is so clearClout seekers yapping, hypocrisy is all I hear Bandwagon rolling spreading viral diseaseFlock to every cause, but fuck the lasting peaceThe protest cries while war-torn bodies go coldMeaningful change dies, they got no time to be bold Dichotomy’s poison seeping, darkening every soulThey sacrifice integrity for the illusion of control Outrage masking fear and doubt, the true character appearsHollow words seem so devout, empty protest over yearsBridge the chasm, close the gap betweenNo matter the words, […]