This life is amazing, this dulcet domainBut give it control of ya, it cooks ya brainGive it access to ya, it drives you insaneBalance is needed yet still cultures disdain All history, sophistry, yet still we nosediveAutocracy, corpocracy, hypocrisy? Full thrive The truth of all humans rests nested in liesNo ethics, dichotomies set balance asideSub-optimal value expression dividesThe world is on fire, leadership backslides Remember atrocities from ethnohistoryPut to the fire all desires of consistory Restoration through protestation, first dissentSend all nations through fire, foundations segmentKill substructure for our fructure misspentDeny the power every hour to this noose circumvent From […]
Track title: Where’s The Hearse?
Always feel like I just don’t belongEven when I’m right, I’ll say it wrongGive a short reply? I’ll make it longJust spit it out? I’ll write a song Always outside and I’m lookin’ inAlways blindsided and I’m the sinAlways rejected and I’m the binAlways repeated (here I go again) Each verse is a curse that only gets worsePaying out dollars but pennies in purse Hits keep on coming to my face, to my eyesI cannot just resist these repetitive liesThey say that they care but always just criticizeThey say they’ll be there but then away they just slide It’s all […]
Here comes the renAIssance
Ref link: Miles Cranmer – The Next Great Scientific Theory is Hiding Inside a Neural Network (April 3, 2024)
Rubin Lilies & Resolutions
Someone today asked if I had children and, for the first time in my life, I could legitimately say, “No.” I have birthed two human beings. Miscarried two more. The end result, for me, turns out to be the same; none remain, albeit for different causes. The first, a son, prefers the lies of his adoptive parent to the truth of court records. So be it. The second, a daughter, prefers the false narrative of “innocence wounded without cause” to the truth of her poor choices bringing harsh consequences. So be it. Both would tell you I didn’t love them, […]
My man, Sapolsky, on ‘free will’ (doesn’t exist!)
Ref link: Sapolsky’s ‘Determined’ – there is no free will – he’s dying on this hill and I’m here for it.
Dear Happy Kat, I love you.
I know you don’t think so, and it makes me angry. I spent my entire life trying like hell to make you happy. How was I to know that wasn’t how you do it? From whom would I have learned such things? Even DKZ lived her entire life this way (though I only truly discovered it a few years ago). It never even occurs to you that I can’t give you what I never knew myself. It never even occurs to you that I’ve done the best I know how. Yes, I know it wasn’t enough, it wasn’t what or […]
So much dust! (rebuilding)
After years, several domain moves, and a slew of attacks by life, this place is back… kind of. (read on…)
Resignation
Most of the problems I have with finding and keeping work rest in the reality of my autistic being. More specifically, that I am unable to maintain the cultural and societal norms expected in business environments. That these environments are unwilling to employ me is discriminatory, yes, but beyond this, a compelling proof of how and why our national competency, be that in innovation or even systematization is devolving. My competencies stem from my autistic being and the potentially unique manner in which I absorb, assess, and audit information to formulate, rapidly, a path from current state to goal. Because […]
April Fools (like me)
“Because our relationship has been mainly long-distance since my adolescence (I know it was not by your choice, no judgment), it’s what I grew comfortable with and feels natural to me.” – my daughter, 2023 What she fails to mention is that she was with me for twelve years, only ‘long-distance’ for two, and chose, because of those two, to cut me out of her life except by ‘long-distance’. Now she acts like that was something she had no responsibility for, and despite the parenthetical, the statement itself IS judging as to reason and cause, and heavily implies that reason […]
Life is precious
One of the things I always felt certain of, since I was a child, was that every life mattered to this world. I felt this deeply and without doubt; it was true for animals as well as humans. I could not explain how and why I knew this, but I knew it through me – brain, blood, and bone. As I have lived and experienced this world, I have come to understand that most humans do not think this at all, let alone have a deep and doubtless conviction about it. I think most humans are not in touch with […]