scrytch, someday (not today)

powerful scrytched piece today, that speaks so well and touches so deeply that for a moment, i thought… but then i reminded myself… impossible. remember? poisoned arrows and disdain. remember? if you don’t, just touch the bandages. yes. i remember. and no, you’re right. impossible. admitted. accepted. all the same, even if a different voice, still, a beautiful piece. as much as i intend to use it, for now, i can only light a candle and set it gently before it… here… and then, leave it a time. until i can bear to read it again.

spontaneity

Spontaneity is being present in the present. Spontaneity by-passes the processes of the conceptual (aspect of) mind. Re-integration with Nature, which we are, is the recovery of spontaneity. – Why Lazurus Laughed by Wei Wu Wei

noon – meditation on the closing of the year

i can hardly believe this year is almost over. honestly, they seem to go quicker than they used to… only yesterday, i was driving ‘home’ from new jersey. only yesterday, i found my ‘dream job’ as a writer for a game company. only yesterday, i was unexpectedly laid off from that dream job. only yesterday, i met an amazing person in a virtual world and for the first time in almost 15 years, felt alive again. only yesterday, i found a purpose that crossed both real and virtual worlds and brought me into contact with a blessed thing. only yesterday, […]

difficulties on the path (3 of 4)

it is after midnight, and i am torn between continuing or sleeping and letting this percolate until the morning. part of me feels somewhat compelled to complete it now. but i chuckle… for this is likely the best sign that i should be exceedingly mindful, and wait… and take it up on the morrow. so… i relent. 12:15am and to bed with me. what is written beyond this will be so in the morning. i’ll adjust the time stamp as needed.