There is no one in my life who cares for me excepting myself and my husband. My daughter does not care if I am homeless, so long as she does not have to inconvenience herself with care of or for me. My son never cared about me, for he assumed I cared not for him. Both mistook my care in leaving as lack of care rather than understanding I cared enough to give them away rather than lead them into the street or hard time by my side. I suppose it is easier to think this than to understand the […]
Finding Me – Rewriting life (it often feels)
It is hard to accept one’s shortcomings. It is hard to understand how the trauma of generations combined with the trauma of experiences result in inability, and how the stubborn refusal of inability results in that blindness behind which all manner of false belief and ego often, safely hides. I was and am a lacking human. I lacked the ability or means to nourish my children, I lack the ability and means to sustain my relationships, my friendships, my marriages, and myself. While I can point to and outline the many circumstances and traumas resulting in my lack, it remains […]
Callback to 2012 – Law School Presentation
In so far as you may be a resident, a citizen, and a constituent of a city, county, or state within the country of The United States, you really need to understand a very, very simple thing:
Coins: Autistic Life Energy Exchange Units
I hear some people like ‘spoon theory’, but since ‘there is no spoon’, I can’t be down with that. All the more spoons to those who believe in them. I align instead to the notion of ‘coins’ because it seems to allow more pointed conversations around parity and equity in both personal and professional contexts. It seems the ND curse to forever be superogatory surrogates of the NT expectation. I understand why; when you genuinely think your neurotype is ‘the only one’ or ‘the better one’ or ‘the more [X]’ one, of course those who are different are other, lesser, […]
This is not a clever headline (because it’s about something that matters to me): Education in America
We are not doing well, America. We’re too busy arguing about whatever dichotomy’s deacons/esses of media and spin are shoveling. This is not good. Because I genuinely hold this as a valid assertion, I must also outline my thinking so I can determine which actions will best support what I think in the world. After all, that’s my part of this social contract and I’m all about doing my part…. The reason education is so incredibly important for ALL of us is that it is so critically important to ALL of us; as a community, a culture, a conviction, and […]
Occam speaks, Portuguese
There is a word in Portuguese for which it is said there is no true, full translation: Saudade. Occam and his remarkable razor, we know: “Among competing hypotheses, the one with the fewest assumptions should be selected.”
street corner maitri
I love you, you stranger on a street corner you of frazzled face and polished shoes with your vente latte and your impatience the world on a string, incessant tugging halos and horns and wing-tip shoes seersucker smoothness and a wall street journal keeping up appearances because you never knew the joneses but the jones for being what appearance implies is such delicious and elusive prey I loved you before I knew you all six years old and careful observer not sure why tailored suits and shiny shoes “meant something” but it must be important because it kept daddy too […]
Yashodhara
The illusion of self Set forth as other Using dichotomy against itself Via dakini’s warm breath The Buddha, curious, going beyond Three times gone, westward, some say Away from having and not Away from holding and not Away from giving and not A triple jewel, refracting Interlacing, the universe, Quantum nothingness; In which everything is, In which everything is not, In which the middle between, The paradoxical phase; Move/Rest 1/0 True/False Imponderable infinity Rendered a slash She inhales war She exhales peace Replication complete: Commutativity