strange happening as i went to run errands and fill the gas tank. i’ve been going to the same station for some time now… the folks that run it are Buddhist, we talk now and then as i’m in line or when it is slow for them.

waking early, coffee in hand, i’m chuckling over certain changes noted and the things they say of those who still waste effort trying to bother.

elsewhere, a pundit asked the question, ‘what would Trump do?’ the question was in regard to the many contradictions that striate our society. how we speak of charity but are so often uncharitable. among other things. the discussion engaged, my thoughts brought from there to here, for later contemplation….

spent most of yesterday gaping at my computer in astonishment as it slowly fell apart. power supply fried. i’m lucky it didn’t burn everything into a misshapen, plastic lump. it managed to take out my agp slot in the process. for a time, i thought it had damaged more… but without video, no way to know.

got an email from a friend in the uk tonight. he sends to me a most unusual image. the artist, someone by the name of ‘varo’. in looking at it, i knew at once why he sent it, and i smiled for it. the woman in the image stands with a shimmering circle in her hands. but it is sharp and unable to be other than hurtful. at the point where it met in front of her, there is now a gap. she has broken it. and inside her, the skies over the forest finally clear, and a path may […]

steak and potato in the oven, the smell is at once torment and promise. heh. i’m looking forward to this meal. the last few days have been spent overhauling the guild domain and setting in place a front end not unlike this one. now that we’re approaching 100 members, it seemed a good idea.

as usual, when unable to sleep, i turn to the sangha. a helpful piece i find, which in turn creates drowsiness. strange how it works, but it is as it is. noting it here for further contemplation, that it might benefit one who visits and reads, and that it will remain for reminder to me in future:

talking to my friend tonight (uk), they asked me a weird question. several, actually, but this one made me think about it long after the phone call ended.

the things we take for granted at times are amazing. i woke this morning and had actual FOOD in the house. little girl at christmas, rushed to the kitchen, set the kettle on, and went into something of a whirlwind of activity… sausage and biscuits and gravy and eggs and pressed coffee… minutes later, staring at the steaming plate, smells rising that made my stomach do the strangest dance, mouth literally watering and a sense of accomplishment that seemed silly.

ever have a day that just exhausts you? well today is that day for me. i was about to head out to the grocery store this afternoon and there was a white envelope clipped to my door. it was marked with the street address of my apartment. i take it. go back in. set down my purse and keys and slit it open and read it.