Active Imagination Sequence Wednesday, 09-12-2006 Starting from Nothing

re-reading notes from a new friend, i found a reference i didn’t know. naturally, this sent me to look it up.

still scanning photos. slightly amazed at all the memories pushing up and out as i go through these.

i’m in the process of scanning old photos and storing them online. mostly for my daughter, but also as a method of reviewing and parsing and passing through the last lingering hurts of early life.

my third husband was clinically insane. afflicted with either bi-polar or manic depressive disorder, they were never sure which. paranoid schizophrenic with delusions of grandeur, he was forever being found naked in some public place, ranting about being god and brandishing some weapon or another at the world.

AI-090906.mp3 Active Imagination Sequence Saturday, September 9, 2006 Starting from nothing (originally recorded and transcribed here, the actual vocal languished on the mini recorder until tonight, 02-27-07. Found it while cleaning out the recorder’s folders. had to record it into the system by mic, hence the scratchiness. )

i am in a very odd state of mind today. hard to describe. whenever i get like this, i tend to wander through various e-sanghas and look for the universe to give me insight, direction, some form of learning.

took a nap and had a dream. in it, i was sitting at a table in some coffee shop and over time, five others arrive who will remain unidentified except as their actions/words might reveal to those who read and have knowledge enough to know them.

how bizarre. i had an extensive contemplation written and, when i went to publish it, it disappeared into the void.

unemployment filed. should kick in just about the time i’ll need it. relief. yes. strange synchronicities, an email smile from a friend in California and mention of a television series. hint of an inquiry as to my interest in scriptwriting. i’m curious. and interested. we’ll see.