Track title: Vicious Cycle

I’m in a flesher and the knife never straysThis regular pressure that I just can’t conveyThis panic obsession that I cannot escapeNightly suppression to keep it away Pain it’s my alarm, and it rings every damn day I’m stuck in this daily grind, the pain never wanesSuch a regular pressure I fear will sustainFull panic obsession which I cannot restrainJust daily suppression hoping gain to maintain Trapped in this life, I search for a wayTo break free from pain, my hands seizing my dayBut the weight of this world keeps me in disarrayLeaves me feeling I may as well just […]

Track title: Leeches

This life is amazing, this dulcet domainBut give it control of ya, it cooks ya brainGive it access to ya, it drives you insaneBalance is needed yet still cultures disdain All history, sophistry, yet still we nosediveAutocracy, corpocracy, hypocrisy? Full thrive The truth of all humans rests nested in liesNo ethics, dichotomies set balance asideSub-optimal value expression dividesThe world is on fire, leadership backslides Remember atrocities from ethnohistoryPut to the fire all desires of consistory Restoration through protestation, first dissentSend all nations through fire, foundations segmentKill substructure for our fructure misspentDeny the power every hour to this noose circumvent From […]

Track title: Where’s The Hearse?

Always feel like I just don’t belongEven when I’m right, I’ll say it wrongGive a short reply? I’ll make it longJust spit it out? I’ll write a song Always outside and I’m lookin’ inAlways blindsided and I’m the sinAlways rejected and I’m the binAlways repeated (here I go again) Each verse is a curse that only gets worsePaying out dollars but pennies in purse Hits keep on coming to my face, to my eyesI cannot just resist these repetitive liesThey say that they care but always just criticizeThey say they’ll be there but then away they just slide It’s all […]

Rubin Lilies & Resolutions

Someone today asked if I had children and, for the first time in my life, I could legitimately say, “No.” I have birthed two human beings. Miscarried two more. The end result, for me, turns out to be the same; none remain, albeit for different causes. The first, a son, prefers the lies of his adoptive parent to the truth of court records. So be it. The second, a daughter, prefers the false narrative of “innocence wounded without cause” to the truth of her poor choices bringing harsh consequences. So be it. Both would tell you I didn’t love them, […]