“I promise,” He said, reaching out to hold her hand and giving her that soft smile, “I’m not going to vanish.” She sat in the quiet, looking at the box with its neat, careful packing and reminded herself once again that it was foolish to trust words; they were too easily said and too easily forgotten, it seemed. The litany of reminders ran like water through her mind. Of especial soreness was the one wherein she had set forth the pattern, painted it in careful outlines and demonstrating precisely how it unfolded, just so he would know that this was […]

Unexpectedly, I am feeling content. Funny how this works. Truly. I’m laughing about it. Woah.

If you have raised a child, eventually you reach that moment in which some wisdom that you know but, for whatever reason, have not truly permitted access, reaches you in their words. I had such a moment with my daughter last night and it turns out to have been quite timely. She said to me, “You need to stop giving your energy and bounty to those who will not restore it in you. You can’t keep it up; no one can, and no one should ever have to try.” This morning, sitting here in the aftermath of yet another proof, […]

Accipere quam facere praestat injuriam

I am beginning to get just a wee bit grumpy with the manner in which every good or enjoyable thing I attempt to accomplish winds up skittering off the damn road and landing in the weeds. Worst of all, there’s no “fault” or “blame” in it, so the frustration has nowhere to go and just sits here and stews and thickens until I feel like I am going to choke on it. I finally got tires and the damn shift lock module fixed on the car. Naturally, this means something has to immediately go wrong with it. I’ve got to […]

There is no feeling quite as sad as the feeling that you know something that you wish you did not. No, actually, there is one that is sadder; having that feeling first.

Ever have something truly unexpected fly into the frame? It’s a rare thing here, but it happened today. Everything is a bit on the floundering side at the moment, as I weigh options and consider new trajectory; initial plays on both sides are complete, but the entire matter is little more than a question mark for the moment. Yes, I know, cryptic. Alas, by necessity. I promise, when details may be made public, I’ll do so. For now, it’s all wishful thinking and crossed fingers and a bit of wonder for curveballs thrown by life. Wowsah.

The moment of a life’s triumph is an interesting and somewhat nebulous thing. The word, “triumph”, is usually reserved for feats of obvious heroism; usually, it is a term placed upon a single act that, in the doing, neutralizes all that preceded it. It is not a term that one finds applied to every-day successes, or defeating phobias, or even winning large-scale sporting events (well, not often). This morning, I had a rare and precious gift, one that may not sound like such a thing upon the mere letters used to name it here. I had a two hour conversation […]

What a glorious looking day. A wee bit on the chill side, but sunny skies with big, puffy clouds that one could look at and imagine into many things. I am idling; mostly pondering where the boundaries are and if I perceive any gap between where I find them and where I think they should be. It proves an interesting thing to consider, as the immediate question that rises is of that “Why is this so critical?” sort. You ever have this happen? Half of your brain is asking and the other half is looking puzzled and trying to figure […]