Yes, I was right. Yes, I am. Yes, I do. Yes, me, too.

Honestly, sometimes it is just downright humorous how some menfolk act. I have (reluctantly) had to close off a friendship with someone who just could not seem to understand that friendship is an active participation, not some odd “when I need you, you be there, but until then… you’re on your own, kid” kind of thing. When I expressed this and made it clear that I no longer wished to hear from him, can you guess the reaction? If you guessed “automatically assume I mean romance”, you got it in one. Projection, much? (wry grin) Not that it makes any […]

It is highly unusual that I actively look forward in life. More so that I look forward to a particular thing/event. Today, I am looking forward to tomorrow for two of them. Heh. Mind you, the rain (which slipped in during the night and actually woke me for the mighty barometric flux just before beginning) is kicking my hiney today. Ache. Throb. Stiffness. I am going to be late for work thanks to it…. it’s annoying to know such a thing, but then, it’s annoying to suddenly find yourself made into a turtle for reasons that simply won’t be shaken […]

Ya know, it’s interesting how, every now and then, I completely forget all the things I know and let myself get all knotted up and stressed out over “something”. When I finally realize what I’ve done, I always feel a bit sheepish; you know, that whole “Again? Really?!?!” reaction. Human still, I reckon. Today has been the day of general release and regulation; a return to the norm (for me) and a dispatch of stress and strain. I find I am remarkably relaxed (though not fully just yet) and generally calm with increasing movement toward contentment and peacefulness. In truth, […]

Now that the spate of frustration and anger have come and gone, I feel mostly relieved. Resolution, an immutable period at the end of the sentence, an ending, albeit temporary when one looks at it with the long view. There is a part of me that is chuckling already for the utter lack of attachment. Hurray! I manage it. Shifting smoothly from the Focus of the last almost two months; away from housewarming thoughts and toward how to carefully slice the little pie of funds. It’s all budgetary baboonery, of course. Two accounts, paid in full and tires for the […]

I am reminded of a piece I wrote not long ago, on being the fool you are…. most cannot read that word without negative connotation these days, but then, most never were that prone to manifold mentality. Heh. I don’t mean that (as you know); most are quite prone and certainly open to possibility for it, if you manage to snatch them from the mainstream and remind them what it feels like not to be inundated and overwhelmed. A fair and fascinating night, two rounds of REM for good measure, and more genuine contact than I have known in years. […]

Remember when I wrote a week or so ago that I could feel the flux of an impending change? (A sudden disturbance in the force, Luke…) Well. It’s here. Hah. Feels like surfing, really; you never lose the hang of it once you’ve got it (though you may huff and puff a bit for the surprise of the first lurching movements). Alright, in no particular order: – Turns out FHA won’t finance me outside King County. So the plan for a semi-remote sanctuary in Port Orchard (in any fashion) is done. – I have my limit for what I’m willing to […]

Good thing I’m an adaptable woman. Just got the call from my agent and, apparently, there’s a problem. They can’t write my mortgage in Kitsap. As in… at all. So. Goodbye to the cute as a button house and to Port Orchard, it seems. Goodbye perhaps even to the house hunt overall, as the county in which I can be underwritten doesn’t seem to really start under 350, unless you have sweat equity to bring to the equation. At the moment, I have no comment. Nothing you’d want to hear, anyway. I’m 25 minutes from coffee with a friend I’ve […]

Well then. Back on the mark, get set, go! A cute little 3/2 less than five minutes from the ferry in an honest-to-goodness neighborhood. Amazing. Needless to say, the offer is in. Now, once more, I wait to see the outcome. The cancellation letter for the little house with the view (and, sadly, all the repairs and stairs) is on its way as well. Should this one not pan out, then it’s likely either the new construction near Manchester or (should that fail for whatever reason), once more calling a halt to it. As I said, time will tell. Not […]

The harpy in my head is in a sour mood today. She reminds me that I lied. There is a third possibility. It is the worst of them all because it is basically a repeat of the pattern with new players. The blissful ignorance of the primary, the willful competition of the secondary; so desperate for SOMETHING, SOMEONE, that they’ll do anything, say anything, be anything, give up even the last inch. I’m not one to be the willful competitor. The third possibility and I, we are strangers. And if I ever become one to consider it, it will be […]