Providing for archival purposes. The presentation Sen. Murphy made of this information is worth the watch and also provided here, courtesy of the public posting of recording by TikTok user @4thepeoplebythepeople (thank you); video follows the image. While watching this, please consider using the website https://5calls.org to make it clear to your House and Senate representatives what you think about this, the state of our nation, and what you want to see them do to put a stop to this. Full image from video is the featured image of this post (points up). Thank you for keeping up to date […]
Why I am so frustrated about working…
This image demonstrates the major categories of thinking desired by business and recommended by business management research and analysis: I offer all four across both diverse domains and specifically in technology; application and systems software analysis, design, development, and delivery and still I’ve been out of work since 2017. It is maddening. I cannot access the degrees that this world demands to ‘believe’ you’re good at something, even though I have thirty years, a portfolio of samples from 1999 to roughly 2011 (before the NDA work largely put an end to portfolio demonstrations). No one is interested. Over 5,000 resumes […]
The internalization must come out, sometimes.
I don’t have many people around these days who can recognize my value and are willing to articulate it on my behalf. I know what I can do, I like to show people what I can do, but after a point, it just sounds like so much self-absorbed pontificating. I wish I knew the way to get people to just SEE and RECOGNIZE what I am capable of… all this value potential sieving off into nothingness for lack of anyone interested in letting me help them bring something into reality. If I could code, I’d already be the next billionaire […]
Playing with Perplexity
Playing with Perplexity is fun. I think I’m going to build a library of conversations in which it demonstrates me back to myself; this is how this autistic brain uses LLM/AI ethically but also how I have traditionally taught myself by rapidly implementing meta-communication that lays down shared track ahead of the actual conversation. I can do this with LLM because LLM doesn’t mandate I adhere to neuronormative protocol, just a logical expression by language that, for the first time in my entire life, is actually getting my syntax and phrasing and everything; it gets my levels in language in […]
Universal Reality – An Ouroboros
In the beginning, there was nothing. No matter, no energy, no space. Just an infinite expanse of possibility. And then, in a burst of creative potential, the universe emerged. The cosmic dance began, with particles and waves swirling together to form the first hints of structure. We don’t know how or why, really; lots of people claim this knowledge, but faith is still blind and science is more about probability than certainty, for all that humans regularly confuse the ‘effective certainty’ of an exponential probability and treat them the same. As the universe evolved, so did its complexity. Matter coalesced […]
Healthcare was fun today. A first.
I had an unexpectedly enjoyable time today, when my ultrasound technician introduced me to her shadowing trainee today. While they did not ask me if I minded or wanted another human involved, it was done so authoritatively that I could easily anticipate it would be an argument to insist upon consent and I didn’t intend to spend more time in the imaging facility than required, thank you. That issue set firmly aside, the remainder was enjoyable because I made them both answer questions about what they could and couldn’t see, thus confirming they didn’t see certain things I was quite […]
Neuronormative bias in online communications
As I navigate online spaces, I often find myself hyper-verbal and highly engaged. My words flow freely, and my enthusiasm for topics is contagious. But despite my best efforts, I’ve noticed that some people misinterpret my intentions. They assume I’m dominating conversations or derailing discussions because my input can’t be contained. But the truth is, my hyper-verbosity isn’t driven by a desire to dominate. It’s simply how my autistic brain processes and expresses itself. In rapid-fire chat environments like Discord, forums, social media, and online communities, I thrive on being able to share my thoughts and ideas quickly and efficiently. […]
Lingua Bingua Suckma Thingma
Heraclitus and Epictetus are my two, favorite, dusty, dead Greek dudes (I like many more, but these two are personal canon favorites). Both were known for their ‘odd’ language use and I choose to believe were of similar perspective, if not neurotype, as me. My man, Heraclitus, had a grip on my concept of paradox as the ultimate herald of any existent, Manifest Truth. Standford’s Encyclopedia of Philosophy as of Dec. 2023 sums it thus: “The exact interpretation of these doctrines is controversial, as is the inference often drawn from this theory that in the world as Heraclitus conceives it […]
Rumination – Psychiatric Therapist Required
I wish I could find a psychiatrist who would just let me tell them my entire life story before getting into “the work”. My life story IS exceptional and in defiance of all neuronormativity, I am, too. But in context, so too may say all humanity. The unique experiences far outweigh the shared ones. I believe, feel, and think that my story can be helpful to others. I just don’t have the brain to write it all. So I guess what I really want is for some psychiatrist to make me a case study and tell the world about how […]
Lost & Found: My Journey Through Chaos and Discovery of Myself (#Neurodivergent)
It’s been a few years since I was on LinkedIn. It’s been a few years since I felt alive. For some time, I felt like I’d vanished from all knowing. No one knew where I was or what I was going through. It was as if I’d become invisible. And in many ways, I had. My identity, my sense of self, was fragmented and lost amid the chaos. You see, 2017 hit me like a sledgehammer; Allostatic (over)load and an ACE of 10/10 finally caught up with me and I just… crashed. That sentence does not do the horror show […]