he said he wanted to be mean what he really meant was that he wanted to be a man i just wanted him to be a friend silly dream, i suppose men don’t look for female friends when married do they
oasis
finding a crumb, i follow the trail, my cheeks hot for accusations unfounded which now, finally, before the brick wall, i bring validity. sadness, deep sorrow, that care comes to this… willing to skulk along silently, inhale the scent of a solitary crumb before laying it reverently upon my tongue to slowly dissolve. i follow the trails of letters and languages, lore and limping steps upon a path toward a life-long goal. i remember the days when this water was welcome. today, you would rather die of dehydration than drink. i refuse to ask ‘why’ anymore. like the gleaner i […]
archival – about love
i wrote this ‘off the cuff’ over at my myspace page and realized i had not captured it for ‘posterity’ here. heh. so here it is. — You know that old saying about love and setting something free? It goes, “If you love something, set if free, if it is meant to be, it will return to you.” It’s wrong. If you love something, you already admit and accept that it’s free and you love it because it is so, not because you managed to cage it or tie it to your damned ankle. Love isn’t how well something is […]
daydreaming your nightmare
we have imagined it, of course. how we would carefully print, organized, and bind it all in chronological order. how we would wrap it all so gently in protective coverings. how we would print all the pretty photos given and received over time, the audio captured; how you’ve told all the lies and particularly how you’ve betrayed the faith given you not by us, but by her, too. we have imagined how we would write the letter to cover it all, explaining all the things we wanted and how they were never quite as important as you getting to have […]
The Journal & Journey of Brazen Phoenix (Warhammer)
~late evening, Nordenwatch~ It is a curious thing, the manner in which peasants become peacocks when the soldiers are nearby. Throughout my time with the Griffon Order, through the first villages and warcamps I’ve visited, almost without exception, the local peasantry stride and whoop as if they have won the day when a battalion arrives with news of distant victories. I suppose if one is used to a life of farming and mercantile – where the biggest risk is whether or not that woven fabric you spent this year’s harvest money on will sell – it must seem exotic and […]
Character Study: Siobhan ‘Brazen’ Kislevskaia (Warhammer)
Name: Siobhan ‘Brazen’ Kislevskaia Age: late 20’s Birthplace: Kislev Description: Brazen is a tall woman for being a female human, standing about 5’9″. Her chosen career is apparent in the flame red hair and slightly smoky aura that seems to follow her movements. She is a lithe and tone woman, quick to smile, laugh, or anger. Her moods are spontaneous and often arrive or depart without warning. A confident and somewhat brash individual, she shows no demonstrable preference for companionship, even as she has no apparent distaste for people. Loyal to the point of foolishness and kinder than her initial […]
sopopopapopiopolis
he lives in SOPOPOPAPOPIOPOLIS, the city of lost things, old dreams, something like the island of misfit toys, only for grownups who have forgotten the simple pleasures in pursuit of more complex ones…. as if they are different. it’s a sophist’s trap, these ‘adult’ things. ever think about it? oh, we’re far too grown up to enjoy a breeze or the feeling of the sun on our skin, or the crisp, sweet smell of clean sheets at night. too busy thinking of the bills or the promotion or all the things we’re supposed to do and can’t to even notice […]
the dull, empty place
in the dull, empty place words drop like stones no echo, no need thumping heavy to ground small puff of dust the only evidence nothing left to say pretending to be obtuse so… how are you as if it is unknown sorry, i’ve been busy you know how it is yes, indeed how could i not you keep telling me spending time with that which matters two weeks vacation such a busy life once upon a time you asked how long i thought i would love you i told you until i died or until you broke my heart in […]