Unwanted. All my life, I feel it; a weight of dull, dead eyes, not seeing me, only an obligation unwanted, an unfortunate-but-legally-binding presence upon the mind and being of another. I never wondered why. Why would I? The world was entirely certain. The normalcy of what is creates its own authority, it’s own terrible credibility. With time, it is sealed, like so much cement, into the abyss… falling, ever falling, into the quiet, dark void wherein I dwell. I float in it, you know. Always have. I did not realize even this until very recently. I just thought that everyone […]
This hump (day) is breaking, I think
I believe that We The People are being played. I believe that, around this globe, those in positions of leadership[1] and/or power know that there is but one thing to keep all of this speculative investment, revenue-hiding, debt kiting, usury-inciting, offshore-work exploiting, offshore-bank-account-infusing group of REPRESENTATIVES AND TRUSTEES proceeding (sometimes quite literally) full speed ahead: War. I believe that many United States government representatives have so greatly abused their position and power that they, themselves, are at long last fearful of repercussion. I believe that none of this is “conspiracy” so much as the infamous, ignoble, and illegal confluence of […]
This Swampy River (a riff)
Is this Trump’s[1] effort to influence the return of manufacturing to the states?
GLOW S02E04 – Callback to truth
I finally gave in and watched this show; stars, I’m so glad I did.
The Analogous City – Hypertext meets Neocortex – The Pattern
Humans have spent all existence confining, defining, and refining concepts of relation between things. Any activity can be defined as a series of state changes whose only common denominators are energy / matter in a positive / negative / imponderable state. The level of refinement needed is inversely proportionate to the level of sustainability expected. The level of refinement needed is inversely proportionate to the level of scalability expected. The level of refinement needed is inversely proportionate to the level of commutativity expected. The level of refinement needed is inversely proportionate to the level of profitability expected. The above assertions are interrelated, often correlated; […]
On the nature of “social” and the reality of anti-social networks
It occurs to me that much of the mess plaguing “social networks” at the moment arises from a failure to genuinely reflect and remind ourselves about what it means to be “social” and what it means to “socially network”; to revisit what “social networks” may legitimately be defined as and, more importantly, to establish what they are not and why such a judgment may be levied. To this end, I decided to traipse back to the dictionary and good old etymology and hash this out for myself. I believe and think that there are many who may find what I […]
A farewell to the latest avatar of T.M.W.D.E.
The aftermath of any intense experience is always a time for reflection, meditation, and development of understanding for me. Depending upon the type of experience, this happens at different velocity; when I’m sad or sorrowful, it’s almost immediate, same day; when I’m indifferent, it happens very late and is usually very fleeting; but when I have been angered or had anger mix with the feeling of hurt and loss, it usually happens a day or two thereafter. It seems tonight is the night I will finally work through the lingering remnants of hurt, anger, and disappointment in relation to something […]
On ‘Terms of Service’ in gaming, generally
Thoughts on what this really means any my general astonishment that anyone just swallows it and clicks through…
rambly update and a bit of a rant
ok. first off, i’ve been foregoing deeply personal posting or details in some areas of late because some of you reading here i feel uncomfortable talking about such things in front of… but i cannot afford to edit myself in this place any longer. so. either you’ll accept the full spectrum or you’ll give me grief about it, at which point i will likely cut your access because this IS my place to do whatever i need to do to get it out of my head so i can live a sane life and your access here is more for […]
note to a new friend
I find it interesting how things happen. For some time, I thought pre-destination or determinism was truth. Then, for a time, I thought objectivism was. Then, relativism. Then, I realized something pretty amazing (for me, anyway) — it’s all true…. and it’s all false. Both. At the same time. All the time. Everytime. There was an ancient Greek philosopher named Heraclitus. He’s fairly forgotten by all but the most diligent philosophy students and, even then, they consider him marginal, a sidenote, neatly “rebutted” by Plato and later, by his most ‘famous’ student, Aristotle. Generally, Heraclitus is considered the ‘most important’ […]