looks like i didn’t really need a reminder for tonight. i thought i felt a swell of focus and blew it off. well. it came ashore tonight and flat tore up my sandcastle. i’d be angry but i’m too busy laughing.

i love it when a new rose appears.

logging this for later parsing. setting as well a reminder for tonight’s blog entry. keys – language. pleonasm. communication. intention and assumption. alienation. societal expectation and related etiquettes.

for the first time in i don’t know when, i’ve popped awake ‘for no apparent reason’. i was in the middle of a dream. a dream i will not recount here. i feel it. and wonder. that is all.

this, given in reply to someone talking about ghosts, is very likely the best ‘in a rather lumpy nutshell’ summary of what i believe that i have ever managed. hence, placing it here.

i’m sitting here trying to figure out if i’m the one whose out in the weeds. if it really is unreasonable that i should feel hurt. or if it’s just unreasonable to expect someone else to know it, understand it, and not try to act like nothing’s changed.

several names occur, but none actually fit. hence, nameless. which, i suppose, is the best name of all.

“Once you make a friend, a friend never leaves you, even to death. So a friend is really hard to find.” –Wallace Black Elk, LAKOTA Once, an Elder told me he made a decision to be my friend. He said this friendship wasn’t based on my behavior or how I acted; he said the friendship was based on his decision. He decided to be my friend. This friendship has happened like he said. Even if I don’t see him for a long time, or if I get mad at him, he has never changed his decision. This is true friendship. […]

you know, all my life, i’ve put up with people telling me what i need. and i think i’m just about tired of it.

i wrote someone the other day asking for good vibes because i’m feeling a bit down. today, they arrived. i actually felt them. which prompted the following to the place where the initial request was set, given in response to a kind and very tender post that brought tears and smiles.