consistently, i forget to remember that i cannot share with those whose only goal in sharing is to judge things and determine if they must reject another or not. here, in this response to another, within which their quote that establishes this goal is given, a final set of thoughts on the matter, and how frustrated i often become for my own willingness to trust that the initial statements of interest in sharing and understanding are being given truthfully. sigh.

there is a tribe i am active within on occasion called unconditional love, and it is about precisely what you would think from its name. tonight, someone asked about ‘how easy or hard’ it is to really provide such a thing. many responses, most of which were touching. this, mine, set there and brought here because eyeore insists on it.

someone said something to me not too long ago that keeps returning to my mind…. they said, ‘the problem is, most people want to bury that part of themselves that has horns, hair, and a tail. you can’t. the only thing you can do it embrace it and accept that it is just as much ‘you’ as anything you ever aspire to.’

the conversation elsewhere deals with alienation. in the course of trying to explain to another how/why i find the discussion to be clouding, the following was written… just now, actually… this ‘in the moment’ stuff is rocking my brain in its casing. interesting, since the things coming out have been here all along. i can’t help but ask myself why it is that it has taken this long to get to them. then i realize, i didn’t choose it. hah.

” In order to be effective truth must penetrate like an arrow – and that is likely to hurt.” – Wei Wu Wei i woke up just now after having the most bizarre dream i’ve had in a while, and this quote, leapt up and splashed me in the face as soon as i got the computer to pay attention, which is a profound synchronicity itself, both for the nature of the dream in relation to it and a variety of things i’ll not go into in this moment.

this is taken from tribe, where i wrote it in response to someone asking if others would consider  vegetarianism. i place it here because not only is it my perspective/response to the militant vegan, it is my perspective/response in general to those who are pushy, aggressive, or militant. the context is that of whether or not a person ‘is willing to admit’ to lacking unconditional love or compassion if they eat meat.  this was not the bluntness with which they were delivered, but the meaning was the same, as later discussion revealed.

i’m about to be traveling. internationally. what a wonderful and exciting job i have, and i’m at turns thrilled and in wonderment of it. circumstances as they unfolded, this arrived amidst a host of synchronicities that i’ve been too busy savoring to document. and likely never will, what with the new focus on being.

i’m enjoying this in the moment/being stuff. some rather interesting things come of it.

had a bit of an epiphany last night.

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