i thought i was going to write something here. instead, i decide to go eat then go grocery shopping. marking the moment and chuckling lightly for the sense of la brea not yet to the ‘blooping’ point. air bubble rising from under eons of tar. wonder what it will be when it breaks through?

i really dislike money. i dislike it because often, i have to think of it and i would prefer not to. not as in ‘i want more’… more like ‘i’m weary of going without necessities and frustrated because so often, the only reason i do is money.’

you know the feeling you get when you close the back cover of a book that kept you engrossed for what seemed like a very long time? that’s the feeling i have in this moment.

short poem

there was a dream i had. in this dream, all sentient beings of the world were rocks and the wholeness that is was the polisher in which they jounced, in which they bounced, in which they often collided. the rocks, if rocks could think, would probably say the world was a harmful, hurtful, utterly lost and cruel place, wouldn’t they? but all rocks come out of the polisher as gems, don’t they?

archival.

i’m considering adding forums here. just a thought for the time being. i’d not want to do it until i can find a way to link them natively to the blog (register to the blog, you’re auto-registered at the forum). i’m getting tons of email and have finally reached the point at which even i cannot keep up (a first!!)… and it seems a forum would be a great way to let people talk together and contribute as time allows without having folks wonder if i’m just ignoring them. (i’m not. promise.) so… the thought is rattling around. that is […]

what kind of psychologically warped person must you be to think everything has to do with you? how twisted is it to act and react as if every action, regardless how trivial, is somehow intentionally, deliberately, and with malice and forethought, meant to reach you, meant to torment you, meant to hurt you?

interesting experience today. someone agreed to help me find my totem.

just woke up from one of the most amazing dreams i have ever had. vivid.