my first registered title with ASCAP. feel the excitement! *grin*

today is thursday. the week seems to have flown by. tomorrow is the master sergeant’s last day in my home town.

archival.

well. unemployment filed (pending the ‘reason’ – which oddly enough, they refuse to provide… which is puzzling), and the resume already flying to 30 openings and a number of recruiters.

i find i am becoming used to the manner in which life changes more than it remains the same for me. i can’t say i enjoy it all the time, but i am becoming comfortable with it. or perhaps simply less affected by it. no longer willing to suffer for the process of distinguishing one circumstance from another.

“Granted there are certain people to whom the most compassionate act is disengagement (so that they cannot harm themselves or others), but for the vast majority of sentient beings, compassion is simply kindness, tenderness and love.” – a friend, upon a forum, in relation to decision to ban another in a ‘no one is ever banned’ space.

it is a unique experience to be treasured. i cannot say it is something i have ever enjoyed in life. ever known. i suppose that could be a sad statement, except i am so content in this moment, that saying it isn’t at all heavy.

heh. sitting here with the master sergeant, and giving him a short tutorial of wordpress and the ‘inner workings’ of my blog. he thinks, ‘pretty cool’…. or so he says… but i think he just wants me to get away from this damn thing and let’s go do something else. one thing bad about the ‘geek girl’ all you geek guys say you want is… sometimes… she’s just as much a geek as you. (grin) ok…. ok… i’m going!

there’s nothing quite like having a moment in which it becomes very, very clear that your opinion on pretty much anything simply… does… not… matter. my friend, the one who is responsible for me being here, where i am in this moment, the one that talked me into coming here…. is leaving. they are sitting here writing the ad for his replacement. i mention that i’m a copywriter. i mention that i have been an IT recruiter. i offer to help. they both ignore me wholly. oh yeah, i’m really feeling like i matter here. oh yeah,  i’m really feeling […]

hah. one of the memories from youth rises to give me the perfect title for this post.