My path has ever rolled like an avalanche along; in precious, raw, rough parallels, our movements met and, for a moment, harmonized. A moment’s harmony is not a song, but the moment of harmony creates possibility in all who experience it. My wobbling trajectory, with all its graceless noise, was steadied, albeit a transient state, only fleetingly. I wanted to find the loop, the regenerative feedback, and sought it with panicked, shaky hands. I did not understand that my own trembling shifts created the disharmony. I did not understand that what I saw as devotion and loyalty could be seen […]
Mayday
They have had a position for a program manager open for over a year; at no time did they even remotely consider that I would be happy and willing to work for them. They never considered that, for me, working for them would be the very likely best possible way to show them how much I care about them, their growth and success, and in very particular, that I could see my daughter achieve and attain all the things I ever wanted for her, ever hoped for her, and many I could not conceive of due to my own, unfortunate […]
Communativity matters
To kneel at the feet of the guru; awed by the mystery To weep freely before the cultural hymn of a symphony To speak wildly regardless both cacophony and irony To stand with intention at once serene and communally To commit as do you to peacefulness or tomfoolery To suffer no demand that benefits an individual more than the specie To endure as well as possible the inevitability of my own hypocrisy To burn until the fuel of myself-ness, exhausted, mutters quietly To thereafter gather the leavings rendered most literally To scatter, to undo, to ease and release as community […]
Chapter 1: First Memory
Each of these are going to be prefaced by some manner of contextual information or a view on perspective today, looking back at the moment being rendered to writing. In this case, the literal ‘first memory’ I find in the mental attic. I suppose in a way, this will be both my biography and my memoir. Or just a transient phase, left to dry and drift away on digital winds. Time will tell. I sat in the large, steel, farm kitchen sink with the sun directly in my eyes. Through the window on my left, the gentle, swaying giant oak […]
SAO – Unexpected Feels
“Sometimes, there are things you can only communicate by clashing.” – Yuuki Aonno
Ashes and dust and….
The song lyric goes, “Every generation, blames the one before, and all of their frustrations, come beating at your door…”
A speed limit life
And now we come to it, the pinpoint moment at which culture and society mandate a change of referent for me. For. Me. My entire being itches at the implication of it, ever rebuked and rejected. Still, it arrives and will land like the last bit of lace dropping from the eye; my brain and the mind it mimics recognizing the truth that is the organic machine, the homeostatic process of hollowing that brings all life to eventual transmutation… on behalf of the future, naturally. It still irks. The inertia of simultaneously wanting to do everything and being unable to […]
Gaming Update – tracing futures
I am surprised by how much I am enjoying Phantasy Star Online 2 (finally on steam!) – completely free to play with shop that lets those who want to support free play for all buy all the pixel pretties they desire. Suspect this is where Koster 🤩 is heading with the “Playable Worlds” offering, but since they’re not out of stealth, only time (and marcom) will tell. I predict that Koster’s offering will be In the cloud because server farms on land is just so… 1999. I predict that it will arrive with procedural code generated worlds because modular is MMOs future. […]