ack. woke up at 4:00am. can’t get back to sleep. cruising some favorite gaming forums, ran into someone complaining about the lack of roleplay. replied. they deleted their post, saying they saw something they liked. decided to record that reply here, mostly because it’s as true a thing as i can imagine and worth remembering:

well, technically it’s the 10th, but i haven’t slept yet, so i’m fudging. too excited to sleep. interview tomorrow and i’m hopeful.

obligatory entry. not much to tell. well, there is, but it’s all game related, which makes it ‘not life’ and i’m working on putting a little more distance between the two of late.

had a brief and interesting exchange with a friend today. this one, recently gone to ‘radio silence’ in order to see to things that have long since needed their attention on the home front.

another very good day, albeit a quiet and peaceful one. meant to do laundry. didn’t. meant to go to the grocery store. didn’t. spent the day lazing about with the cats, playing with the gallery, and taking the time to be gentle and kind to myself. simple thoughts, relaxed and luxuriously comfortable with blankets, watched a couple of favorite movies and just enjoyed a return to contentment.

what a wonderful day! i woke feeling invigorated and renewed, i literally danced around the apartment, straightening, cleaning, organizing. i thought to head out for a time today, but finances won’t permit it just yet. no matter. soon. i smile for it, too.

caught your livejournal entry. you really should do those more often… enjoyable to see new ones.

just got off the line with a friend, a very good, very helpful friend. we spent … stars… was it really four hours… four… hours *boggle* talking. they have helped me reach something of a epiphany. long overdue really.

dreamhost has been down most of the day for my domains. the server died. this site is only recently back online, the other are still down. i’ve spent the day thinking too much about all the wrong things.

insomnia has me yet again. today i spoke with someone who has been an intermittent presence since the break down on silver hand. fed has joined phoenix deschiado along with cassielle. i must say, cassielle didn’t surprise me. fed did. it is still painful to see how that pattern continues to repeat. once more, that house is abandoned, this time to poor beregrond. it is surely on its last legs. i sigh, and am thankful the concept and name managed to make it elsewhere. it would have been a true loss otherwise.