Figuring out my carbohydrate tolerance was an important part of regaining focus and control – every benefit outlined in the below clip is accurate in my personal experience; unfortunately, most insurance seems to want to insist upon 2 level checks a day if you’re “well managed”. (As if getting there and staying there doesn’t require a minimum of 4 to 6 tests a day, with spikes to the routine if/when new foods are introduced to the diet).  I find it ironic that in this day of “big data” and all swirling thereabouts, even in the insurance industry, no one has […]

She never made the time because she thought she had all the time. It never occurred to her that every moment is a gift, or that none are permanent or even guaranteed. It’s not her fault. Life happens. You get busy. You choose what is closest or easiest, what is fastest and less likely to introduce any unexpected factors that might disrupt well laid and considered plans. But there is a flawed premise sitting under all of that; it is that one could ever hope to calculate all the variables to a high confidence of relevancy… most humans, frequently myself […]

At the end, it doesn’t matter where first cause is found, who is to blame, or even why it happened. It matters only that I love you, and I have tried to get close enough to demonstrate that love for nearly two decades, without much success. It is maddening that you insist I have not tried when I can point to so many attempts, rejected and ignored. It is hurtful that you persist in false narrative when even a cursory review reveals that what is being claimed is impossible given the routines and circumstances of the time – all of […]

When the election of 2016 was complete, I turned to my husband and said, “You watch; by the end of this guy’s tenure, we’ll either be a dictatorship or the next and newest third-world country.”

Once upon a time, I was fully self-sufficient. I had to be, there was no one in the world who cared about me or what happened to and with me EXCEPT me, and I bloody well knew it. I didn’t realize until my mid-20’s that it could be any different. I didn’t realize until now that maybe it shouldn’t be. I’m re-learning; to be completely candid, I’m remembering it’s not wrong to maintain a healthy separation from those who cannot treat you honorably, inclusively, respectfully, and with care. I had forgotten how healing it is to simply tell someone that […]

I will preface this by saying that, in my oh-so-humble opinion, you can put any word of relation in place of the word [love] in this item. It is nice to feel confident in that opinion, and pretty much all the soft and hard sciences support it, so I can even say (and savor) that I feel confirmed and validated. I know this is why my entire experience of family, fellowship, and friendship in this life is currently constrained to three people. I will not put a label on the sentiment that rises when I contemplate that, of the 7+ […]