To reward myself for staying on target and getting done what needed done, I took myself to the movies. Two, to be precise; The Lightning Theif and (or all things) Valentines’ Day.  The theater damn near killed us with “chic flick” trailers before finally showing the second movie. The first, alas, was nigh forgettable. Don’t get me wrong, all the actors were quite serious and seemed very caught up in the reality they were creating; it just didn’t absorb me. The second movie was surprisingly well done; evocative, poignant, humanistic, and managed it all without getting smarmy. Between the two, […]

The nice part about this process is that I’m in no rush; I have successfully confirmed that the area in which I’m searching is, in fact, the area in which I wish to be (having spent the day roaming it for “business” rather than pleasure and finding it equally enjoyable despite traffic and the somewhat ludicrous driving patterns of the locals). The little blue house I thought would be “the one” turns out to be in severe need of renovation. Alas, it would be excellent income property had I the time, money, and patience to spend upon it. But, I […]

Yes, I still log activity and yes, I remember how you arrive, and yes, that video included you, too. Good to see you checking in, even if silently. I hope all is well with you. In other news… Final 1 is done. Final 2 is set aside until tomorrow night, after the house tours and the decision on whether or not to make the offer. The weekend is chock full of things, though mostly obligatory rather than entertainment related. I may take myself to the movies just to get out from under things for an hour or two. Friday morning […]

“You do understand that if he’s as fearful and insecure as this makes it sound, the last thing he’ll ever do is actually reply, right? It would be like confirming himself and, of all things, that could not be endured.” I nodded and slowly sipped my coffee as I ruminated on the various bits of analysis and how it all built the shape of things far better than words ever could, ever would. In some places, an hour is as good as a day is as good as a month, a year, or a lifetime. But I found relief in […]

Things have lightened up considerably since the recent decision. I spent tonight going through what was rapidly becoming a new email archive and obliterated it. It felt good. Liberating. History is a ghost whose grasp is only as strong as we allow. I think about where I am, where I’m headed, and I chuckle to myself and am relieved to have had near misses (all things considered) and relish the thought that it could not possibly be better than it is in this moment. I am feeling the freedom again; rushing roses and heady warmth. I don’t think I will give this […]

Well. Thanks to the herculean efforts of a seemingly tireless agent, it looks like my house hunt is not only back on, but damn near progressing to the point of an offer. I’ve found a swank little bungalow in my favorite, bohemian part of the city and wait now for the agent to tell me we’re square for putting in an offer. Best of all, if all goes to plan, I’ll not have to touch my bonus to get this deal closed. This means that not only will I have a home, I’ll actually still be able to pay off […]

Alright, already. Sheesh. Can this just like, go away now? I’ve been sick since Thursday last week and it’s still lingering around, making my sinuses and head hurt. The fever is only here and there now, mostly gone, but not completely (hence no work today; i’ll not infect others, period. a bit of a peeve, that). Doctor’s appointment tomorrow for official “no piggy flu” test and then, likely antibiotics and over the counter meds and back to normality (well, as close as I get to it). I’ve been enjoying the sunshine outside my window and wishing I could get out […]

The feeling you were truthful hurt more than does the feeling you lied. Thank you for not caring enough to hide the deceit.

I had a conversation with a friend today on the various disgruntlements and angsts of dating. Naturally, being a fellow, he thinks I’m fortunate to have as many dates as I’ve had; regardless that each and every one has been experiental evidence of a number of broken themes amongst men that continue to annoy. He told me of the time he made a profile for his cat, just to see if it were true that women get more responses than men. The ad, of course, was flooded; he was immediately convinced that women have no cause for complaint because, hey, at least they’re […]

A peaceful pox, this illness. I’m not quite ill enough to be delirious or unconscious, but very much ill enough to make getting up, moving about, or trying to do more than sit still bothersome bordering on difficult. Needless to say, I’m bored to the point of screaming (only I dare not, as my head would likely explode; sinsus in an uproar as it is and throat decidedly scratchy and annoyed). Sigh. I was supposed to get the next pass on ink for the right arm today. I was supposed to go check out a new coffee shop today. I […]