Ugh. Two of the surest signs in the universe that your’s truly is not feeling well: (1) I have slept almost 16 hours straight. (2) Daka and Dakini have taken up post in bed, by my side, foregoing all and simply being close. So it’s pretty much downtime here. I’m writing from the laptop in bed and considering whether or not to try installing the VPN to log into work (bored and a touch of guilt are bugging me). I suppose I should just chill and focus on hoping it isn’t swine flu, but you know me… =/

In case anyone is wondering, I’m fighting illness by trying to ignore it. So far, it’s not working too well. Sleep hasn’t helped; now I’m likely awake for the entire night (what with the average cycle being no more than four hours). Bleh. There may be a plethora of posts tonight.

Archival. Themes I want to more fully explore. — 4:47pm************ Bubble 4:47pmBonnie hey you. Sup? 4:48pm************ Not much over here, though. Planning the next Siren panting. 4:48pmBonnie I see. I think you should do sometihng on the ancient sea goddess Ran. She supposedly captured men who fell overboard and dragged them to their doom. 4:49pm************ MMMM, that sound fun. 4:49pmBonnie Though it is often debated if she saved their souls in the process or not. Heh. Wiki her. 4:49pm************ Ha, that sounds like my day. 4:49pmBonnie Karma-tastic. Heh. Theme and meme and stream all at once. 4:49pm************ I will and […]

I find the difference between a flesh wound and a soul wound is largely having a sense of what the intention in any given thing is or may be reasonably guessed. As expected, knowing the latest ending was motivated out of a sense of good intention largely averts anger. Not completely, of course; the tired “fear and disappear” refrain wears on me. Enough so that I’m pulling back from various social sites and interests because I’m just not willing to put up with it. No, not even to try and get to what I need. I was also correct in […]

I’ll not bore you with details or drama; I’m going offline for a bit (I think). Excepting this site, all other avenues are closed for a time.

I am woefully behind on these. Work, college, and a bout of social activity has distracted me. I have not, however, forgotten. How could I, when it seems every moment lately is reinforcing it all in ways that I cannot figure out how to fit into words? I am becoming more and more comfortable with the “suchness” of it all; finding more than a little delight in doing so, and finding life’s path becomes remarkably smooth for the choice to stick to “what is”. Granted, there are moments of decidedly oily, sticky things, but they are dwindling. In other, only […]

This is the busiest social weekend I’ve had since arriving in Seattle. Hurray! :) Bootstrapping complete, I find the adjustments easy and enjoyable to make (though I suspect it may take a small amount of time for those in proximity at work, etc. to realize/recognize what is happening). Friday was a delightful set of hours with a new friend collaborating on community building and system design. I had not realized how much I missed this!  Memories of (H.) were ridiculously poignant and melancholy, but passed swiftly. (Small gifts of overall progress are noted and savored. I think the most profound […]

Hah! This is a happy post. I finished my initial tax preparations over at Turbotax last week and groused for discovering I didn’t have “enough” medical/dental expenses to exceed the standard deductions AND wound up owing “Uncle” Sam money on top of it. I decided to hold on filing so I could budget the payment, set it aside, and tried to forget about it. In today’s mail, I received a straggling 1098-T (tuition payment) and sighed for wondering what this would do to my return. Got home from the morning errands and decided to grit my teeth and see to […]

For a very brief period of time, I had something of a crush on a person I met at the office. This, before the even briefer encounter with another person that culminated in a train wreck of deceit and anger (previously documented here). I recall feeling a bit pinched in the ego when this person told me they weren’t “in that market” right now… weren’t interested. Eventually, particularly after the above mentioned, I wrote it all off as karma being kind; reminding me of my “no dating co-workers” policy and reminding me as well that the experience of late 2009 […]