a recent discovery and now, favorite lyric… you’re on a highwire and i’m climbing out and i feel the danger as i steal a kiss from your mouth and will try to hold steady make you believe that the height of the tightrope is just second nature to me but i will break all my bones ’cause i lied about the vertigo and i have never been up this high there’ll be no safety net when i fall right out of the sky there will be no ambulance waiting and i’ve no wings to fly so we’ll meet on the […]
rambly update and a bit of a rant
ok. first off, i’ve been foregoing deeply personal posting or details in some areas of late because some of you reading here i feel uncomfortable talking about such things in front of… but i cannot afford to edit myself in this place any longer. so. either you’ll accept the full spectrum or you’ll give me grief about it, at which point i will likely cut your access because this IS my place to do whatever i need to do to get it out of my head so i can live a sane life and your access here is more for […]
U.S. Democracy – Patch Notes
Found elsewhere and brought here because I enjoy good humor and this definitely fits. Wish the piece had attribution. If you know who created this, please let me know. I believe in giving credit where due. — US Democracy Server: Patch Day Version 44.0 President * Leadership: Will now scale properly to national crises. Intelligence was not being properly applied. * A bug has been fixed that allowed the President to ignore the effects of debuffs applied by the Legislative classes. * Drain Treasury: There appears to be a bug that allowed loot to be transferred from the treasury to […]
a party. hah!
well now. the company party is tomorrow night. for the first time in over 15 years, i’m actually ‘dressing up’ for something. i spent today at the mall after work. searching desperately for SOMETHING that was both affordable and worth wearing. having shopped myself stupid, it occurs to me that most women these days do not know the difference between ‘class’ and ‘crass’. as it happens, it’s more than the “L”. i was mildly astonished that, apparently, most of the industry’s idea of ‘dressy’ today is a combination of ‘sluttish’ and ‘over-exposed’. but… eventually, the proper dress made itself known […]
down time.
i can’t decide what to entitle this. i’m starting off by laughing at the pain. seriously. one of those ‘ah, fuck, this hurts.’ but laughing as i’m saying it things. this FUCKING HURTS. the pain meds only put me to sleep. i’m tired of being knocked out, so i’m not taking the meds. so this fucking hurts. and i’m laughing. why? because the thing that hurts most are the TEETH STILL LEFT IN MY FUCKING HEAD. the fucking irony of it. that i’m sitting here, only thirteen teeth left in my head, and the fuckers have the audacity to hurt […]
taunt
well now. they’re starting to hurt. as in feel stretched. as in likely are knitting together but it throbs like a mother. past experience tells me that i know what dry socket feels like and thusfar, i’m not there, not do i plan to go there. but i’m beginning to wonder if i might have been a tad optimistic on the time it would take to knit up to the point that i could operate at work. guess we’ll find out. for now, i’m working at keeping my tongue off of it all (you’d be surprised how work that actually […]
half and half (dentistry)
well. this wasn’t as bad as i feared nor was it as easy as hoped. i sit here and contemplate whether or not i should gross you out with pictures. heh. part of me wants to record it and part of me is already pretending it didn’t happen. thirteen more to go, all in the front. apparently, they are the easiest to get out, so they get to go last. i’m so impressed with my dentist that i truly do not know what to say. even in the drugged state i was in, i know that he drilled out extra […]
note to a new friend
I find it interesting how things happen. For some time, I thought pre-destination or determinism was truth. Then, for a time, I thought objectivism was. Then, relativism. Then, I realized something pretty amazing (for me, anyway) — it’s all true…. and it’s all false. Both. At the same time. All the time. Everytime. There was an ancient Greek philosopher named Heraclitus. He’s fairly forgotten by all but the most diligent philosophy students and, even then, they consider him marginal, a sidenote, neatly “rebutted” by Plato and later, by his most ‘famous’ student, Aristotle. Generally, Heraclitus is considered the ‘most important’ […]
holiday night
i was a big goofball today. stayed in my pjs, played withthe cats, hah. had a blast doing pretty much nothing at all. made a new friend, ate pb&j, and little more beyond the usual merry day calls to friends. i feel pretty darned good, which is nice, since i thought for sure i’d be a melancholy mess. not much more for the moment. i’m feeling rather offish in relation to the blog, so don’t be surprised if i miss a few days between now and the new year. hope your day was full of delight. love you. (hug)