this is the most settled i have been in one place in almost eight years. i thought about it today. the reason i thought about it was that i find the last eight years has almost conditioned me to want to move as soon as things seem like they will settle. it’s odd. somewhat a pre-emptive effort to avert being caught out? hm. i catch myself saying things here and there like, “well, until the next disaster….”. but i must admit the ‘disasters’ are decidedly calmer these days, even the ones that have been of major disruptiveness. it’s… nice. i’m […]
saturday contemplations
a relatively quiet weekend. my roommate is back from vacation, so i’m back to spending time behind a closed door. i know he mans well, but i also know he either didn’t understand or didn’t believe me when i said i have a need of quiet. it may well be that my preference at home has ruined me for living with others. it seems the only time it has been otherwise was when i was raising my daughter or living with a partner. anyway. i just finished reading a rather amazing series by jaqueline carey, the kushiel triology. if you […]
oh my god. i did it.
i am sitting here wracked with goosebumps, shaking, quite literally. i did it. for the last week, i have been longingly looking at an ad posted to the local craigs list looking for a senior tester to relocate to europe and test for a ‘leading mmo company’. i know it has to be funcom. i just know it. today, almost without effort, i updated my resume and pulled together a cover letter and sent it off. as soon as i did, i felt electrified. i know that will sound silly. but i swear, i just sent it less then thirty […]
lunar moth
recording available: lunar-moth within the pane, thrumming, the delicate tappings against glass, i could hear them, faintly, from my pillows. from slumber, i woke and was restless, the light flutterings of despair upon the sill called me from the dreamlands and i replied, albeit reluctantly. the lunar moth is a thing of great and odd beauty. delicate green wings like leaves, veined with white and dusted silver by moonlight, antennae of deepest purple, fern-like and trembling for knowledge by which to navigate the twilight. it flitted and fluttered at the window, called by the soft beam of the nightlight. i […]
stray sighing thought
“nothing feels sexier than freshly shaved legs…. except perhaps having a man close by to say the same.”
early evening update
go figure, i’ve got places to be and things to do. for a change. tag, title, and such complete, work complete, feeling much better and in the mood to be somewhere that isn’t staring at this monitor. short vid for those who care to see it. as always, click through to view. oh, and just because i’m feeling prett-ah, a picture, too!
evening update
not much to report. quiet day. worked from home. stomach is better. thought about taking myself out for coffee tonight but decided not to risk the recently calmed belly. so instead, about to curl up on the new bed with the cats and cuddle a bit before sleep. hope your day went well.
watching it go under
i always say i hate being right about this kind of thing. and i really do. but sometimes, honestly, i have to laugh for the regularity with which it happens. my ex-employer has gone under. as expected. as predicted. as i said they would if they didn’t change things. it’s annoying, really. to see people ignore you because they can’t stand that you can see something they cannot. to have them deride and antagonize you for it as if, somehow, their inability indicated you are in error. i have often tried to explain how it is that i can see some […]